What do I think about?

So, what did/do I think about?    As a virgin, while porn is fun, I just couldn't imagine the associated feelings. In fact, some of it looked downright painful. But what got me off....and still does....was the exposing part. Let me explain.  A girls sex is hidden...secret...tucked away. When she is lying on her back with her legs spread, it's a very vulnerable and exposed position.

When I was around 16, I loved nothing more than spreading my legs. Whether I was clothed or not didn't matter too much..just opening my legs was such a thrill. I would catch boys at school staring at my crotch. I don't even know if they knew what they were looking for, or at. All I knew was that I was showing a secret part of myself. At home, in my bedroom, I would often lie in my bed, or on the floor with my legs spread. I couldn't imagine what it felt,like to have a boy thrusting in me....how could I? But mmmm, it gave me such a warm buzz, and I would be randy in a heartbeat. I would lie there rubbing my clit until I came. 

Sometimes, if I was lucky, I might hear my sister and her BF. I would hear the odd moan from her, or grunt from him. I would,picture her on her back and him inside her like the porn movies I'd seen, sometimes,mi would masturbate alongside them, trying to cum at the same moment she did, my sister could never keep the moment of orgasm quiet, Then, around 17/18, things changed for me. I began to have really wild fantasies. Sometimes the things that got me off were things that shouldn't have. For example, I went through a period when I imagined being forced by a group,of,guys. It wasn't rape, because secretly, I wanted them to do it to me, but in my head, two of them held me down while the other tucked my brains out. Then they took turns. Shit....even writing that got me wet!  did I have lesbian fantasies? Yep....still do. Girls club together a lot around puberty and after. We look after each other, and of course, we talk. Periods and sex being the main subjects. I knew my circle of friends masturbated. I knew at least one had lesbian feelings, and I think like a lot,of,girls, I wondered what it would be like with another girl. So that became a masturbatroty fantasy too. I would think about slipping my hand into another girls underwear and exploring her...finding her wet...finding her clit, and then pushing two fingers up her and finger fucking her. I would imagine us rubbing pussies together and squirting in each other when we came, sometimes, it would be far gentler. I would,imagine us wearing panties, but just kissing. Lovingly, tenderly, until we both spontaneously came into our panties. 

Right now, I'm going through something of a 'stranger' phase. I like to imagine myself somewhere in public. On a train, maybe, or a bus, or someplace crowded. I feel someone pressing against me (all this has actually happened) but then it becomes more. I feel a hand on my ass. He lists my skirt up and pushes his hand down my underwear and over my ass. He feels between my legs and a finger sinks inside me. As for me, I'm pushing back against his finger, wanting it deeper in me, feeling like a whore. Sometimes, I imagine him tearing my pantyhose and I feel his hands on my hips and his cock between my legs. Sometimes, I feel him spunk. fuck...I need to go now,