Masturbation and Me

When I started to masturbate, I used to strip naked every time. Being naked felt sexy, dirty, and just taking my clothes off made me feel horny. If it had been a hot, sweaty day, so much the better. I liked the scent of myself. But then I discovered that wet panties needn't feel yucky. 'Yucky' is a state of mind. So, well....I turned it into something else. 

I decided I would teach myself to see my wetness as a sexual thing, the feel of it and the smell of it too. I loved seeing the mess I made when I took my underwear off after one of those wet days all girls know. I would, I admit, smell myself, and taste myself too. Sometimes, it made me wonder what another girl might smell and taste like, and now and then, around 16 or so, I had lesbian fantasies sometimes. 

But then a friend told me she pees her panties sometimes. Actually, she dropped it into conversations to the point when I realised she was trying to tell me something. "I got locked out....I was trying to get in and I wet myself." Or she might say I needed the bathroom, I knew I wouldn't make it.....I wet myself." It was only when I realised that she lived in the country and yes, it was a fair walk from the bus stop to her home, but there were plenty of fields and even a wood that she could easily have peed in and NOT done it in her underwear that made me realise this was sexual.    So, I tried it. Even knowing I was going to do it felt great! When I actually got to squatting down (I did it outside) and holding my skirt up, I was already very wet there. And then....mmmmmmm. I felt that warm wetness spreading, but it was way more than the feeling, it was rebellious, dirty, naughty, all of them really. I felt my clit buzzing and pulsing and I rubbed myself even before I'd anywhere near finished pissing. It was a really deep, almost savage cum!    Oh it's not something I do all the time, far from it. But now and then....well....a change is good, right?

My friend has a girlfriend now. (Who knew?) even so, she still tells me stuff. I often wonder if she ever had desires for me, and what I would have done if she had acted in them. I would probably have gone along with it for the experience I think. Sometimes, she and her gf pee ON each other. Initially I felt "Ohh yucky" but somewhere at the back of my mind, I kind of got it. 

Sometimes, I masturbate using the shower head. A jet on my clit does it every time, and I suppose, if I was in THAT kind of mood, a girl or a guy peeing in my clit, well, what's the difference?    Hmm....sexy thoughts. I need to take care of myself now.