Reflections on Man to man activity

Follow Up Analysis I am doing this for the many guys have the same thoughts I had and still have today.  I know there are young guys today that are struggling because they are bombarded with gay, straight thoughts, etc.  I have gotten fantastic feedback from my recent story that I decided to offer more self-analysis because it is clear I am not the only one having lived through the feelings and sensations. I think there are different phases.  Teen jerking – finding out that jerking off was the best activity I could find.  Growing up before the Internet, things were limited and discussions were non-existent.  Cumming three of four times a day was not unusual.  I had a special old t-shirt that I would put on my pillow and jerked off into it.  When I changed technique to jerking with my hand I would hump the bed with my hand holding my cock.  Then I met a guy when I was 15 we started slowly – show me yours, then lets jerk, then jerk me and I’ll jerk you.  Did not know what “bi” was but I knew this was the better than doing it myself.  I was always wondering if I was gay but dismissed it because I looked at only “girl magazines”. I never looked at anything “gay”.  I never thought about looking at men, men magazines, men in bathing suits – nothing.  When we got together it was his cock and my cock, nothing else.  Thinking back when we were playing together I never thought about “gay” I thought about cumming.  It was only a few days later that I wondered why I enjoyed this activity.  Upon thought I realized it felt good, it hurt no one and was a positive experience so I let it go.  I knew there would be a next time and I was comfortable with the decisions I was making.  I still am. College was focused on girls and their tits and pussies (all hairy I might add).  Dry humping them and then cumming in my pants was not unusual in the 1960’s.  Always wore clothes that would not give me away.   As an upper classman the fun of intercourse and getting blow jobs finally arrived.   I was active and thoroughly focused on pussy.  When I came home I had occasion to meet my “friend”.  He had introduced me to the joys of another cock in my hand I had two options and I always chose both!  It was exciting.  I had always peeked at other cocks.  I was fascinated with the different sizes, shapes, hairy, smooth, hard and soft.  In back of my mind was the question of my sexuality.  I know I loved tits and pussy but the fascination with playing with someone’s cock and he with mine was something I could not resist.  Jerking off together was great.  He started to suck me and that was great as well.  I never did anything with another guy during college, only when I came home and we “bumped into each other”.   Married cock was another phase.  I was married, happily for the most part but still playing with my “friend” on occasion.  Being married and playing with another cock is a different dimension.  As is the practice, most women don’t like to suck a cock (my wife included), certainly don’t swallow and even playing with my favorite toy is not something they try to develop the skill required to be an expert.  All guys know what feels good.  They know about speeding up at near the end and they know they will do it again the first chance they get.  I would never cheat on my wife with another woman.  I believed playing with a cock is not cheating on my wife because she doesn’t have a cock.  I still believe it. I firmly believe that playing with another man is normal.  I think rubbing cock and sucking cocks is normal.  I think kissing another man is different.  I am not a fan. I am not a fan of anal play so I have no opinion on that.  Society has changed, the pendulum swings back and forth.  I know that I am straight in that I am happily married and do not spend time day dreaming about men.  I am not threatened with my “hobby”.  To me it is like tennis – it’s something that hurts no one and brings enjoyment to the “players” If you are young and looked at gay stuff on the Internet it does not make you gay. If you are young and discovered playing with another guy’s cock – enjoy it.  It doesn’t make you gay.  It didn’t make me gay, just happy.  Do not let someone else label you.  I have seen guys play with another cock and think because they like playing with another cock or being sucked by a guy must make them gay.  Actually it only makes them satisfied for that moment.  With the change in society you can go both ways and it’s your decision.  Growing up I played sports but did not like many of the “jocks” because they were assholes.  There were very few gay guys out growing up.  I now know I was not the only one that had a special secret.     If you are older, married and curious, go for it – it’s fantastic!  Many guys I have played with, married guys like myself, say they played when they were young and started thinking about it again 20-30 yrs. later.  I never got together with a guy that did not love my touching his cock and he playing with mine.  I am often surprised how many men want to suck a cock.  It was something they thought about for years and now were getting a chance.  Since I often like to talk about what we are doing, why we are doing it and what their thoughts are after we have done it, they rarely say they have satisfied their curiosity and they are done.  We become FWB and meet on occasion. I believe it is a natural thought process. Most boys, guys and older men all want to cum.  When do we not want to cum!?!?  We are looking for a little bit of fun, not a change of life or risking their marriages or health. I look forward to feedback and sharing of experiences – even if you are not inclined to write a story.