Crossroads

Being fucked was an experience, and much as I expected, it was rougher than doing something with another girl. Not that it wasn't nice....it was.....very! Sexual contact with another girl is more....well, slow, for one thing, the tension builds and builds...also, I find that I have much, MUCH dirtier thoughts and desires....things that (maybe) I would do with a girl that I would be way to embarrassed to even suggest to a guy, but all this has made me just want myself for a while.  So, I've been masturbating way more than usual just lately. The accompanying imagery or fantasies are strange too...well at least for me. For a start, usually when I do myself, I have some kind of roll play, some kind of scenario playing in my head, but lately, I've also had just "still" images too, and some of them aren't even that sexual!  For example. Last night I was feeling really horny. Nothing had happened to set it off, I was just in my room, reading and became aware of that sensation of needing something between my legs, which in turn made me realise I was wet. Very, VERY wet. So I thought I would just rub myself off. I rolled onto my back and slipped my hand into my underwear. It felt warm, slick and my vagina, and the crotch of my underwear were sticky. As I started on my little sex bean, I waited, as usual, for my brain to magic up something for me to think about. Usually, as I say, it gives me a scenario. This time, it just gave me an image of a girl I know at college sitting on the toilet. Her panties were round her knees, and it was just that....a still picture. I found I could look at it in minute detail. As she sat there, frozen in time, I saw her panties, I saw the little white stains in the crotch, and I saw her face. She wasn't masturbating, but even though I couldn't see it, I knew she was peeing.    And the orgasm hit my like a hammer!  But I still wasn't done. About half an hour later, I wanted to go again. This time, I wanted something in me. A trip to the kitchen yielded a nice banana. Back in my room, again still clothed, I pulled my underwear to one side and slipped the deliciously firm (and cold) banana inside me. The feeling, for a girl, when something that stretches you nicely is pushed inside you is glorious! I arched my back and began to try to think of something. I know if I try too hard, nothing happens. It's best to just take my time, close my eyes and let my brain find its own level. Which, in this case, proved to be the gutter! I was expecting to have a fantasy about being fucked by some gorgeous, if imaginary hunky guy, but that's not what Miss Brain supplied! Instead, she gave me a scenario. I was at college, and a lecturer...a FEMALE lecturer was fucking me with one of those strap on thingies. Somehow, knowing Inwas being fucked by another woman was intensely erotic! She was on top of me, inside me, kissing me romantically, yet fucking me at the same time. I could feel her boobs against mine, feel her curves, her bum, meanwhile my legs were pulled up high as I encouraged every inch inside me. Oh holy crap....did I cum!    I know it was only fantasy, but I imagine her strap on actually ejaculated inside me. Is that possible? To they make strap ons that 'cum'? Either way, in my mind, as she pulled out, I felt this flood of wetness. It made me cum again.    I think I need to work through these feelings. I would love a girl to "fuck" me, but it's not something you can really ask for spins it? "Hey, what you're doing feels great, but would you mind getting a strap on dick and screwing me please?"    As for Male fantasies.....well, I've been having them too. Wild, silly, ridiculous images. Being gang fucked, having men cum all over me, but the weirdest involves my sister.    As you know we masturbated together, and this little scenario popped into my head shortly after I got laid for the first time. In it, I wanted to share my experience with her, so I led the guy by the hand to her bedroom. Once in there, I told her I had lost my cherry to this guy and offered him to her. I watched as he undressed her. His cock was still rock hard, even though he had cum inside me, but what made me cum was not him fucking my sister, it was when she sucked his dick. Taking all of it deep in her mouth, I suddenly realised that if this had happened, she would be sucking my cunt off his dick, and woah.......MASSIVE orgasm.    Like I say, weird shit is happening right now.