Watching Myself

As much as I love partnered sex, I think masturbation is just as good, if not better since I’m in full control of exactly what feels best to my genitals. Often when I’m alone and have privacy, my mind goes right to masturbation so I’ll make pretty quick work of finding a spot and getting right to it. I typically masturbate to porn but I also love watching myself masturbate. Sometimes I make videos of myself masturbating and play them back while I continue masturbating, which is always a major turn on. I love The look of my big fleshy clitoris, especially when it’s swollen and stiff with arousal. I’m masturbating right now and I’m watching my lips hugging my vibrator as it moves in and out out of my vagina while it pulls the underside of my clitoris up and down in a way that feels so good and looks so sensuous to me that it brings me to the edge so fast I need to look away so I don’t cum too fast. Sometimes I enjoy the feel and look of pulling my foreskin back-and-forth over my clitoris, sort of like how a man masturbates his penis. I wonder whether other people enjoy watching themselves masturbate as much as I do. 

I know I’m addicted to I masturbation but I don’t care. It relaxes me and I think regular masturbation is part of what keeps my pussy so healthy and ready for sex,and my clitoris so big and easily aroused. Sometimes I fantasize about having such an intensely urgent need to masturbate that I wind up masturbating in inappropriate places and in strange ways, like just shoving my hand down my pants or up my skirt and getting myself off and/or humping things like furniture, large boulders, display stands in the grocery store - you get the idea - and getting myself off on the spot, like I’m completely out of control and the urge to masturbate is in complete control of my choices and actions. I don’t think I would ever really do that, but the thought of doing something so slutty, desperate, and transgressive is a turn on in and of itself. I also enjoy the thought of other people getting so turned on watching me masturbate with such urgency that instead of calling the police to arrest me, they can’t resist the urge to masturbate right then and there themselves. 

I know this post is a disjointed ramble, but my mind and body are in a very aroused state and I’m not thinking clearly. I’m just watching my vibrating dildo steadily moving in and out as my swollen genitals get closer and closer to orgasm. I’m going to end this now so  I can focus on my fast approaching orgasm. I hope this resonates with some of you and maybe even turns you on a little and compels you to masturbate. I love the idea of it being contagious.

Happy masturbating, everyone!