Title: My pussy, My Dildo and My Thoughts

A quick collection of random thoughts that I could have during masturbation. As I look over it I realize it is disorganized and no clear thought line. Oh well! Please feel free to send me feedback in the form of a comment, private message or add me as a friend. Thanks for reading! Sometimes I can't sleep and lay awake at night, my thoughts racing. A lot of times I am able to masturbate myself to a satisfying orgasm which causes me to get drowsy enough to drift off. I have a small collection of toys (dildos and vibrators) that I use occasionally, though sometimes I will use my fingers to pleasure my womanhood. Usually I will start by wearing something loose fitting to bed, perhaps some shorts and a tank top with no bra under it. I like wearing a thong or g-string at first and then pull it to the side to expose my eager pussy. Something about sliding the elastic to the side gets me excited. Maybe it's because my previous lovers would frequently slide inside my panties in preparation to make my cunt theirs for the night. I'll then reach into my nightstand and select a toy that will bring eventually bring me to orgasm. Lately I have been choosing a small 4 inch dildo - it is large enough to satisfy my tiny half-Asian pussy just fine. I'll begin by massaging the rubber cock head against my closed labia - teasing it open. I can feel my juices starting to build deep inside. I'll then use my free hand to either rub my budding nipples through my shirt or begin to caress the folds of my vulva. Right now my pussy is fully bald and my lips are meaty and soft. The prepuce of my clitoris is quite pronounced and easy to access with my fingers. I sometimes will rub the dildo against my clitoral shaft, coaxing the hood down to reveal the sensitive tip. Quickly, the flower of my vagina will begin opening up, the secretions begin to naturally lubricate my entrance and the tingling of my labia beckon to be stretched open. Next, I will slowly insert the 4 inch artificial cock into my pussy as I masturbate the foreskin of my clitoris with my off hand. My knees spread apart as an invitation to be fucked. My thoughts will frequently be: am I tight enough for a guy, am I wet enough for a guy, do I smell good enough for a guy, am I sexy enough for a guy. I'll start penetrating myself quicker with short thrusts of the rubber cock - at this point I can start smelling the fragrance of my cunt as it lays open. Sometimes I will pull the dildo out and suck on it as if it were the penis of a lover, tonguing under the head lightly before drinking the wetness of my own making. I'll wonder why guys like the smell of my pussy, why they tongue my hole, why they nibble my clitoris, why they want me. Occasionally I will prop myself up in doggystyle position and take me from behind. What does a guy think about my asshole as I lay in a most vulnerable position. The dildo spreading me open as I thrust it in and out of my unsatisfied sex-hole. I'll rub my aching clitoris as I am being fucked by a rubber manhood. A lot of times I will queef in this position which only causes me to tax my pussy more, the slapping sound as I pleasure myself feverishly. The lips of my vulva turning red as I continue to grind against this artificial cock. I feel like a whore in this position. My lovers know this pussy is always available to them. I'll think to myself as I masturbate in the dark: do I give it up too easily, do guys think I'm a slut, is this twat damaged goods. All these fears running through my head only motivate me more to punish my undeserving vagina. This cunt is so used up that no decent guy should have to orally service it, smell it, lick it eat it out. I don't deserve this kind of pleasure. I continue closer to cumming. I'll switch to laying on my back. Legs wide open like the prostitute I feel like. I'm having my way with myself. The dildo now being slammed into my pussy. I'm sweating now. I am fully naked. My free hand jacking off the tip of my clitoral shaft, pinching it, slapping it. I want to cum so bad. Why couldn't this artificial cock be a former lover. Making my pussy his, owning me, my cunt is his for the taking. I feel my womanhood build up and juices are free flowing down to my anus. Finally the wave of intense pressure is released and the orgasm spreads across my entire body. I let go of my clit, the dildo slides out of my exhausted cunt-hole and my heavy breathing slows. I grab the tank top to wipe the beads of sweat off my forehead. Why was I thinking all those negative thoughts about myself? I clean myself up in the bathroom, put some clean clothes on and head back to bed. Night does some weird things.