She Almost Made Me Feel Like a Clown

Like you [Jstfrths], I've always been a proponent of masturbation. As I'm sure you'll agree, it clears the mind, balances one physically and socially, and does all sorts of other things like potentially replacing harmful habits, mitigates pain, reduces the liklihood of unwanted children, and lowers blood pressure. I've also believed, and I'm not sure you're on board with this [I am], than it should be more open in our society. It isn't supposed to be a secret activity that one can never talk about, and can't do in front of other people. If we were in a well-balanced society, nothing could be further from the truth. I think it would be better to shun smoking in public. That's what should embarrass people. After all, that kills people. So, taking it a step further, because after all, someone has to be a leader, I decided to make a little video of myself enjoying a good wank. I didn't quite know where I'd post it, or what exactly I'd do with it, but I thought it might be a small contribution to normalizing masturbation throughout the world. So, I asked my wife to film me. She went kind of crazy, in the way she does when she doesn't like one of my ideas. First, she'll absolutely refuse to participate. Then for the next week, she'll turn every conversation between us into what's wrong with my idea. This drives me crazy. Nomally, I slink away, letting her win. This time, it was too important, or maybe the exhibitionist in me was winning out, but I stood up to her. I told her if she wouldn't hold the camera I'd find someone who would. She could see I was serious! So, she held the camera. Or actually my Android phone. I stretched out, naked of course, in our recliner, and went to work. The problem was, she made me feel foolish. I was irritated that I felt this way. I mean after all, this was supposed to be a glorious wank session, and she had me feeling like a clown. As a result, it took me a good five minutes to even get erect. I had planned to shoot it all in one take and just publish it on YouTube or somewhere. Now, I'd have to edit out the beginning. Time always wins out. I continued to stroke my soft little willie while she walked around with the camera to get various angles, and I think she was zooming in and out, too. Fortunately my attitude started to change, and I was getting into it. Shortly after that, I was really into it. My mind filled with excitement that someone, maybe even thousands of people would see me wanking, and I'd be doing my part in the world to let everyone understand that wanking, even in social settings, really is OK. Finally, I was cumming on my belly. By the end of the filming, Gloria was smiling, and oddly, suddenly she wanted to go to bed. To have sex with me. I had to explain to her for the millionth time that after I cum, I'm in no shape to have more sex for at least several hours. Well, the video got back burnered. I felt it was kind of a chicken-shit video. I had instructed Gloria to make sure my face was never seen. I wouldn't have wanted any of my friends, co-workers, church members or any one else to actually identify my naked self on the Internet jerking off. Yet, isn't that the crux of the problem? If masturbation embarrasses people due to the social stigma, and if I really meant to do something about it, wouldn't I have to just go ahead and face the music? A month went by, and the more I thought about it, the more I had to do it. I needed another movie of me jerking off, but this time, showing my face, plain as day. Again Gloria objected. She was sure one of her church ladies or yoga friends would see me, and she could never live that down. I kind of understand. So that's where we are today. At a stalemate. I haven't made the important video, and no one has seen the first one. I have to admit, I don't think it's all on Gloria. The fact is, I'd be mortified if my boss, coworkers, my brother, my parents, or someone else that I know came across the video. Where's my resolve? I don't know... What are your thoughts about this? [He then asked me to tell people to leave commets below, and relay them to him. So, folks, go ahead and comment.] - JstFrThs