My Weirdest Fetish

So, um, yeah. I have a thing for sexual response itself.

Not, like, the act of having sex with someone. I mean the body's natural response to being stimulated. That's my fetish. The warmth of the chest, the tightness of the cheeks, the curling of toes, the grabbing of sheets, the nerves intensely twinkling in the loins, the quivering of knees, the heaviness of breath, the light-headed floaty awesomeness that is sexual response. Especially seeing others experiencing it, and enjoying it, and recounting their experience... and helping others along that path is just as amazing.And of course, my favorite part is the sound of the voice. The wonderful song of pleasure. Every little squeak, chirp, whimper, cry, and call. The word moaning doesn't do it justice. The natural sound of someone in the throes of sexual response and soaking up every little bit of the experience is my absolute biggest turn-on. Even my own voice satisfies for this fetish... letting my own inner song out gives me an immense boost to my own libido. (Which, to be fair, is really low until tapped into.)I've seen orgasm often called the highlight, the goal, or the means to an end, for most talking about sex on the Internet, but to me, it's part of the complete pleasure package. I wouldn't need an orgasm to feel nice, but goodness does it complete the experience perfectly. The buildup of everything, all the little details growing stronger and stronger, and of course the private organs themselves getting ready for their strange, fascinating work.Then feeling the threshold of orgasm itself, the edge. Then, carefully or not, pushing past that wall, and feeling all of the built-up energy pouring out of your brain, down your spine, flushing the area between the legs with what almost feels like a numbing liquid... And then the body just... turns off, and starts contracting... pumping and pumping, like the machine it is... it's scary, almost. And yet, oddly beautiful what the body can do.Sexual pleasure to me is like... a natural beauty that we've learned to harness as art. A natural art for the sense of touch, whereas food is for the taste, scents are for smell, landscapes are for seeing, and the blended sounds of our environment are for hearing. Some say sexual response is just to satisfy hormones, but I believe there's so much more beauty to the experience.

On that note... what really sucks about my pleasure fetish, occurs when finding ways to turn myself on with it. I often find myself searching for people's accounts of pleasure, their sounds, or videos of their body's individual response. But far too often, this curiosity only leads me to biology articles, which are trying to blow back the curtain on, say, pleasure circuits, or hormonal responses, in regards to orgasm. It always bothers me so much.I think we shouldn't be trying to view the experience of sexual response through such a machine-like lens. I see why it would be helpful, for the purpose of helping those who are having trouble with their sexual response. But beyond that... it's almost disturbing to me, to see the beauty of sexual activity reduced to such a demystified form. Perhaps sexual response should be studied more from a physiological angle? As in, what cause has what effect? Rather than looking for an objective biological purpose for the response?Besides, sexual response is fun! Seriously. It's lots of fun to masturbate different ways and play around with my own response, just to see what happens. Different feelings are almost like different flavors. Some are really soft, relaxing and nice... some are way too strong… some don’t feel like much at all… and some are like, the strangest sensation there is. But in the end, it’s all in good fun to me.Anyway, this got really weird really fast, but that's what I have to say about my absolute weirdest, yet biggest fetish. I love reading about, hearing about, and seeing all the little details of someone's sexual response, including my own. It's one of nature's natural beauties, and I absolutely adore everything about it.