My First Time Masturbating

I had gotten semi-errections since I was about 9 but had no idea what they were about and I didn't like them because they occured at the most inoppurtune time and would get pinched by my pants. I remember wondering if there wasn't something wrong with me but was too embarrassed to ask my parents so I just put up with them. They never lasted for more than a couple of minutes and then went away and I'd forget about them. When I was 13 I was taking a bath and just kind of laying there soaking in the water and lazily washing myself with a washcloth. As I washed around my penis it grew slightly errect but I found it easier to cloan that way and as I washed I grew harder and it felt kind of good so instead of mving on to another part of my body, I continued to rub my penis. It soon grew even harder and along with it the good feeling grew as well. I was kind of surprised how good it felt and that I had never felt that feeling before. My penis got more errect than I had ever experienced and I kind of wondered if maybe I was doing something to it that I shouldn't be doing and cause some kind of harm to it but the feeling was so good I didn't want to stop. Eventually the feeling got pretty intense and it kind of scared me so I stopped and finished my bath and got out. Later on I went to bed and shortly afterwards my penis began to grow on its own and I thought, I wonder if I can make it feel good again so I pulled my underwear down and began to rub it just with my fingetips on the back side. It didn't ake long and those strange, wonderful feelings returned but again, they grew stronger and strong and I thought I'd better stop again but I just couldn't. Before I knew it there was an explosive feeling and I watched as a few spurts of mostly clear liquid lept out of my penis. The feeling was so strong that I thought I was going to pass out. The feeling subsided and after I could regain some semblence of control I lay there thinking, 'I've really screwed something up'. I worried how I was going to explain this to my parents when they had to take me to the doctors. It wasn't red like blood though and I scooped up some on my finger thinking it might be pee but it was thicker in viscosity than pee and I hadn't a clue what it was. I didn't sleep very well that night afraid I would wake up dead or something and everyone would be gathered around my casket saying, 'Poor boy, he died playing with himself.' i woke up the next morning and felt just fine but it worried the heck out of me. A couple of weeks later I got another errection in bed and the desire to 'feel that feeling' took over and I again masturbated to another orgasm, again worring that I had screwed somehting up. After that I did it, willing to take the risk of dying some terrible death! Thankfully it was about 3-4 months later that we had a pretty primitive sex ed class that was mostly about pregnancy and how the baby develops in the womb but a short section in the begining about the sperm and the egg and how the man ejaculates into the women and fertalizes the egg. It also mention that sometimes boys our age need to release the sperm and might have nocturnal emissions at night or masturbate to release the semen/sperm. Boy was I releivved! They even had a word for what I was doing! And I haven't died yet.....