How Many Times

I started masturbating when I was 14. What a discovery. I'd heard my friends talking about it- getting hard, the gooey stuff that comes out and the feeling. I'd pretended that I had experienced these things, but it wasn't true. One day we were having a circle jerk in the fields, shrouded by some thick bushes. We all had our pants down and rubbing our dicks. One of the guys jumped up and said that a lady was coming over to us. He pulled up his pants and started running and the other guys did the same. I remained there cause something was happening to my penis that I'd never felt before. I kept rubbing and jerking off. The story of the lady wasn't true. My friends had taken off and I was there alone hidden by thick bushes and I continued jerking. Something new was happening, something intense. Well I had the "feeling" and it felt intense. I think that I might have even shouted out something it was so intense. My dick went down and I pullled up my pants and left, but boy that changed things for me.  From then on I couldn'lt  get enough of the feeling. Nothing came out of my dick when I did it, but the feeling was nice. I probably went on like this for months. I'd jerk off and have this wonderful sensation, but nothing  would come out of my dick like the other boys described, Eventually I did have stuff seep out of my peehole. It wasn't a lot of stuff, but a little drip or two, and it was slippery, so I knew that it wasn't pee.  It actually took some years till I ejaculated. That also was an intense experience for me. I could feel something building up in my penis. It was intense. I shot cum all over myself, my stomach and up to my neck and face. From then on, jerking off became a messier activity and I would bring toilet paper to bed to clean up with. I'd clean up with the paper and take it to the toilet later to flush. Sometimes I'd fall asleep and throw it away the next morning. Somethimes I'd forget and leave it under my bed till next day and then sometimes I'd totally forget the next day to throw it out. I'd notice that when I'd remember to throw it out it'd be gone. I know that  my mom had thrown it out. That was an embarassing thought.  The other embarassing thing about jerking off was the fact that being raised catholic, I had to go to confession and confess that I'd been impure with myself - very embarassing too. I hated having to do that.  Really from age 14 to age 29 when I  got married I jerked off a whole fucking bunch. I did begin to get laid a little in my 20's, one night stands, but really jerking off was my main souce of sexual pleasure. Thank god for marriage,  cause that saved me from a lifetime of jerking off. Marriage has been fantastic. I love my wife and the sex is great. We've gone through stages with sexual things. She developed severe arthritis in her hip and couldn't spread her legs open to fuck, so we did lots of masturbating. That was fine with us. It wasn't the lonely kind of jerking off when I was young. We were sharing anyways. Eventually she got a hip replacement and so we were back to fucking. Was funny though, when we did get back to fucking, we also chose to just jerk off together. We got used to doing it when she was in pain and we liked it.  Wasn't too long afterwards that I got prostate cancer. I had surgery for it and the surgery wasn't too kind on my erection. I now needed to take viagra to get hard. It worked for me, but didn't work for very long, one or two minutes. My penis woiuld go soft and slip out. If I wanted to cum, I'd need to jerk off or she'd give  me a handjob, either one works. Tjhere's also the fact that I no longer have semen shooting out. The semen is prostate fluid and no prostate, no prostate fluid. I've found that when I cum now, pee shoots out. That may sound a little yucky, but I find that it's better to shoot out some pee, than have nothing come out. So we do lots of masturbating together. She uses her vibrtators and has fantastic orgasms. In fact her vibrtator orgasms are more intense than when we used to fuck. I tell her that and she laughs, but she agrees that they are better and stronger than when we fucked. Things change. She'll use her vibrators and have several great cums. For me I use the viagra and if it works I fuck her for a minute or two and then jerk off. We still look forward to having sex, whatever form it takes.  But here we are years later masturbating together. And it's fun.