Bi-curiosity and First Experiences

I recently responded to a forum post on bisexuality with a few memories of same sex encounters.  I have written about the early encounters (and my later encounters with men) in other stories, but re-summarized in this post (re-edited below).

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I don't think labels are useful, but as I have gotten older I have definitely become more bi-curious.

Before I knew much about sex (very little), my first experiences were with other guys. I had a same age friend who was curious like me. Sometimes after sleepovers, in the morning we got in the shower stall together and touched the heads of our penises together (only the heads of our dicks touched, we didn't have erections and didn't handle each others' dicks, although we were obviously totally naked.)  We did this a couple of times.

When we were a few years older and were becoming interested in girls, we talked alot about what we would do with certain girls. I suggested that we practice. I would lay on top of him and we would say the girls name and act like we were going to kiss (we never did). The first time we did it, I got the urge to reach down and grab and rub his dick through his clothes. The few times we did it, right about the time I would feel him starting to get hard, he would push me off. We usually did this in his basement, so whenever we went down there it triggered the urge to play this "practice" game so I could feel him up.

Sometimes I dispensed with the "practice" ruse and just reached out and grabbed/rubbed his penis through his clothes. These explorations never lasted very long and we never did anything more than this. When we started going out with girls, these activities stopped.

Although I might have had many opportunities for bare dick play with my friend above, it first happened when I briefly played with one (slightly older) friend's bare erect penis in his basement when he pulled it out in view of two other friends. In the moment I was really curious and liked it, but it only happened once.

So my first introductory (semi)-erotic experiences were same-sex experiences with other boys, but I then moved on the girls/women ...

It was not until middle age that I began to feel comfortable about wanting to explore/indulge in a desire to play with men.  I had a close female friend and we shared our same sex experiences (few) and fantasies (many). I shared with her my urge to do things with men or have an encounter with a man. (I guess it had been a suppressed desire that I never thought about, but it was very hot and erotic to let her help draw out my hidden desires with her non-judgmental personality and her own willingness to share her deepest thoughts).

She encouraged me to further explore this side of myself and purchased a few all-male videos for me to stoke the flames (of course she questioned me on what I liked in the videos and watch I did while watching).  I enjoyed giving her the blow-by-blow (so to speak) of these all-male videos including which scenes or men I jacked off to.

I progressed to playing with men's cocks a few times including mutual stroking and jacking off. I fantasize about giving handjobs to men, sucking cock, and submitting to feeling a man's cock in my ass. So far, the sucking and submitting has remained a fantasy, but I love jacking off while watching men do these things to each other.