Adult Bookstores...then Adult Theaters

My trips to porn stores began out of the need to masturbate out of the house when I was married. My wife at the time wouldnt be in the mood for sex for a week, so I'd stop into an adult bookstore, visit a booth, and jerk off while watching the little screen. Of course other men would be there, and many would try to enter my booth offering sex, but I wasnt sure about gay sex, and didnt want to cheat, so Id decline. After my divorce and when I wasnt dating, the urge would come back, so Id return. But during these times I had nothing to hold me back and I figured it was healthy to explore sexuality. With that, Ive progressed over the past twenty years. 

One time in the booth I got the courage to leave the door slightly open and men would peak in and watch. I wouldnt say anything, Id just stare at the screen with my pants down, stroking myself off, breathing heavy until I had a strong orgasm. The thrill of being watched so closely by a stranger, having them watch me do something so intimate, was very erotic. Next stage was letting them in the room to join me. They'd come in a lock the door behind, drop their pants too, and jerk off with me. By now I was becoming more bold so I'd also talk to them about the movie we're watching or comment on each others cocks. Although I had zero attraction to these men, sharing masturbation in such detail was even more thrilling. After doing that a few times, I eventually became comfortable enough to be completely naked in these booths with them which got me very hard. Eventually, these men, always older, would touch me. Some were good at jerking me off so I let them. I tried touching their cocks too but Im just not into it. Then one time about a year ago, a man came in to the booth who was very good at giving handjobs. He got down on his knees and stroked me with skill. It felt amazing and as I got close to cumming I told him. He then lubed up the finger on his other hand and slipped it up my ass while stroking me and it brought me right to the edge. I was so caught up in arousal that I let him do that. It made it even more heightened. Then I started cumming very hard, like the kind of orgasm where you have no control. He knew this was happening and started to move his mouth closer to my cock. I was reluctant because again, Im not attracted to men, but I was so turned on that the thought became arousing so I let him. By the time the  first spurt of cum shot out, he had the head of my cock within an inch of his open mouth. One or two spurts went into his mouth, and then I pulled away. It was a great orgasm and I felt that maybe there's nothing wrong with this, letting men do other things to me. I thought about it over the next few few weeks. I concluded that, because Im not attracted to men at all...it was just raw sex...not homosexuality. So I relaxed more and started letting them do all kinds of other things that I wont mention in a masturbation forum. A majority of these experiences were pretty good.  Then one day on a business trip I found a full size porn theater. These are old movie theaters that just play porn and allow any kind of sex to go on. I was really nervous going in out of fear of getting arrested. It's very dark in there but the big screen provides some light. Men and sometimes women (rare) walk in, let their eyes adjust, and masturbate. First time in I saw men blowing each other right out in the open. Other men were walking around completely naked jerking off. I was shy though so I jerked off inside my pants. But, like before, I kept going back and trying new things. One memorable trip, I went in and sat down in a middle row. Took my clothing and shoes off so I was naked from the waist down, spread my legs and masturbated. Two men approached and one touched my thigh and eventually started fingers my ass. The other man stood over us encouraging us along. It was super erotic doing this in full-on public setting. I came gushes. Ive also become very vocal. When I come, I announce it loudly so the whole room can hear, and then moan out loud as it happens. This brings me to my current situation. This week I have a business trip in another state and found a theater there. Im going to go in, stroke myself for while, settle down into a seat, get naked, and let the older men takes turns stroking me, fingering my ass, and performing other sexual acts on me. When needed, condoms are used. I consider all of this to be healthy, human sexuality, shared with each other, out in the open. Celebrated openly, without fear.