What's Wrong With Me?

Ever since I was eighteen I've had this thing, it's nearly an obsession. I just love to give guys handjobs. First, to have a guy become erect in my presence seems like a big compliment. Like, by my very presence, I've done something. I just like seeing that big thing protruding up and out from the guys. Then, to have them ejaculate in my hands, to feel their dicks pulsing, it sends me over some sort of edge. And it's a weird edge. I don't want an orgasm of my own - usually. I just feel so good about making the guy cum. It's been easy. Shortly after I meet a guy, I just come right out and tell him, "I'd really enjoy giving you a handjob." Almost everyone has accepted right away. I'm fortunate to live alone in the house I inherited from my uncle. It's a three-bedroom house. Living alone, I can easily spare a room, so that's he one I have a massage table permanently set up in. I invite the guys over. I don't offer them drinks or anything. I take them to that back bedroom, tell them to get naked, put them on the table, and I go to work. I stay dressed. Oh, some of the guys are kind of shy. They're afraid to take their clothes off in front of me. I rather like that. It's more fun if they're reluctant at first. I'm not particular how the guys look, as long as they aren't overly fat. They can have a small dick, a large dick, they can be tall, short, bearded or not, black, white or any shade, and it's all the same to me. Well, I do prefer guys who are hairless down there. Not so much shaved, but lasered or waxed. They used to cum too soon. Lately, I've been using a technique that everyone enjoys: When they are right at that point where they can't hold back, I let go. Sometimes, I catch it just in time. Their dicks will pulse a couple of times, nothing comes out, they stay hard, and I can resume my handjob. Sometimes, I miss by a little bit, and a couple of drops of sperm come out. They usually beg me to keep rubbing them at that point, but I won't. Evidently, it's sort of dissatisfying. I believe it's called a 'ruined orgasm.' But the funny thing is, they stay hard, and after a moment I can resume on them. One guy came four times before his big and final ejaculation. Some of the guys want repeat sessions. Depending on the guy, either I do or I don't. I've dated a couple of them, but that's not what I really want, so the dates haven't turned into anything serious, yet. But, I'm only 24. No hurry, right? Anyway, that's what I like. Am I too weird do you think?