What I Like About Being Autosexual

After I ended a relationship almost 2 years ago, I've never looked back. My last ex-boyfriend and I are still on friendly terms, but we couldn't make long-distance work, and I also had to admit that as wonderful as he was in every way, I preferred to have sex with myself. I've been sexually active with myself since an extremely young age, and after a detour of having partner sex that began when I was 14 and ended when I was 30, I am back to exclusive autosexuality once again. Masturbation has been so satisfying that if I never had sex with another human being again for as long as I lived, I think I would still be happy. Don't get me wrong. I've had great sex with other people, but it is in masturbating that I feel most true to my desires. I have a high sex drive relative to most other people, and the first great thing about masturbation is that I don't have to coordinate being in the mood with someone else's being in the mood for sex. In almost all of my relationships, I have wanted sex more often than the other person, and being autosexual means that whenever I want sex, I go ahead and have it. A big part of my sexual experiences with this past boyfriend and some others was giving them masturbation shows. I do have an exhibitionist streak, and having them watch me while I had sex with myself was a big turn on for both of us. However, I never or rarely got into that hypnotic zone that I normally get into when I'm in the middle of my slow edging sessions. There, the purpose is to make the experience last as long as possible. I would orgasm much sooner during these shows for my boyfriends than I normally did when I was by myself. When I'm with myself, the orgasm is often an afterthought or a side effect of masturbating. It wasn't the end goal. Each exquisite, heavenly stroke of the clit is its own goal when I'm by myself. The orgasm only happens because I have stroked up to a point where the pressure builds up so that I can't handle any more. There are things I like to do while masturbating that I didn't want to share with my boyfriends. I like doing it with mirrors to give myself visual stimulation. Sometimes, I will use a small make up mirror between my legs to get that gynecological close up or sit back in an armchair with feet on the wall on either side of a full length mirror to see my whole body. My boyfriends knew that I was into this and wanted to watch me while I watched myself, but I kept these sessions for myself. Same thing with dirty talk during masturbation, which I find very arousing. That has always been a private thing for me. Now I can do these things without feeling like it is selfish that I don't share. The sex I've been having with myself has gotten more hot and heavy since coming into my own as truly autosexual. I hope to have many more years of masturbatory bliss.