Wanking and Growing Up

A few nights ago I was with a group of friends on a stag do and after a few pints we started talking about our own sexual histories, and it made me think back and wonder how guys ever manage to get a relationship with a girl to work long-term.

Like lots of teens my early experience of sex fun with somebody else was jerking off with friends which quickly developed into us jerking each other off.  Even before that I can remember getting boners and can remember "sword fighting" with other boys in swimming changing rooms but there was no cum or anything like that just childish fun.

A couple of years later and puberty was in full swing, didn't waste a hard dick sword fighting! In those early teen years I was always horny and wanking off at every opportunity, I quickly realised that all my friends were doing the same and swimming changing rooms now saw cum spurting out most times I was in there with one of them. By the time I was 15 me and a few friends would think nothing about jerking ourselves and also each other if we were all horny ......it wasn't always as a group, sometimes just any two of us would end up together helping each other to cum for the fun of it. Simple non-emotional fun.

When I was 16 I started seeing a local girl (we went out for over 18 months), she was lovely in every way and we both got on well with each other's family. We never actually fucked as she was terrified of getting pregnant but, except for that, we enjoyed each other's bodies when we were alone. She quickly worked out what I liked when she was playing with my dick and could judge when I was about to cum. Her favourite place if we were naked was for me to cum on her tummy but if we were outside alone somewhere she was happy just to wank me so that it spurted onto the ground.

Her pubic hair was the softest I have ever known, she kept it neatly trimmed and wasn't too happy if my cum landed in it as it was messy for her to wash out.....omg now I think back. So my initiation into sex fun with a girl was a good one, she was usually as horny as me (well maybe thats an exaggeration) but its fair to say that most dates included her wanking me off and me fingering her, even on her period she liked me to gently caress and kiss her boobs.

All first loves come to an end and we parted friends. The next girl I dated totally confused me, we were both nearly 18 and in company I was proud to call her my gf but when it was just the two of us there was no sexual spark from her at all. She lived the other side of town and I had use of a family car to go and pick her up, other than hugs and a gentle kiss there was nothing...she could have been my grandma. Our fourth date was our last....I could not take any more of being with an attractive girl for a few hours and then as soon as I dropped her home I would need to park and wank myself off....might as well save some money and stay at home watching porn with tissues ready.

Girlfriend number three was sexually half-way between the other two; she had a lovely vivacious personality which made her fun to be with, when we were alone she initiated the cuddles, undid her tops so I could caress and kiss her boobs and  undid her jeans or skirt so I could finger-fuck her but she would never jerk me off...the most I ever got was her feeling my boner over my jeans. 

If I suggested getting my dick out she would laugh and say not now which I learnt actually meant not ever. Difficult situation for me, I liked her as a person and her body was great to touch and play with but my dick longed for attention, on our last two dates we had made out in my car and I gently told her before driving her home I needed to get out and jerk off as her parents usually invited me in for coffee, her response was something like Ok you do that and I'll wait here.

It didn't last which was a pity really as both her and her parents were good people and always said hello if we bumped into each other...and I couldn't really ask them about it could I.

The initial impressions of my next girlfriend were good, bubbly personality, dressed smartly, nice body and she loved playing with my dick....and loved me playing with and kissing her boobs....but, even after a few dates, I could never get inside her panties....its difficult to be cross with a girl who is giving you a wank while you are driving!  It all ended when she moved away to work in another part of the country.

I know relationships are more than sex but happy satisfying sex must be part of it...current girlfriend is fine but I do not see it as "forever".....seems that the only thing I can truly rely on is jerking myself off when I need to cum and maybe if I ever bump into one of my former teenage mates....who knows....