Video Chatting with Meagan

It's been cold and I've had some time off from work coincidentally. I'm single and I don't get much attention from women, not as often as I would like. Dating apps haven't gotten me a single date. I can be very shy in real life, afraid to ask women out or start a conversation with a stranger. To break up the boredom and quiet and monotony at home during my time off, I seek women's attention online. Women's attention online, especially if it's sexual, gets my dick excited and makes me start jerking off! Want to make my dick stand at attention? A notification or a message from a woman gets me excited! I was on a video chat site where users next each other. It's hard to get a woman who wants to chat instead of hitting the "next" button. After looking for a while, I found a woman in her early twenties from Chicago. I figured she must be single too and not have a boyfriend or much attention from guys if she's on this site chatting with me. I started off polite enough, and in the back of my mind, I knew it was only a matter of time before I turned the polite discussion and basic introductory questions about work and goals and location and age into a subject matter that takes an increasingly sexy turn! I love women's boobs. This woman's name was Meagan. I was dying to ask Meagan about her boobs! Meagan was a brunette. She mentioned that she's often alone and doesn't have many friends and that her birthdays are often unhappy. She mentioned that a guy friend invited her out earlier in the night, and then canceled, and then texted her again later to inform her that he went out after all with another female friend for drinks and they didn't bother to invite Meagan again! Meagan said that she turned down the offer of her friend the first time to stay home by herself and study for college. I don't always use my voice in a video chat for different reasons sometimes, but I was chatting out loud and audibly over the microphone in this particular case and Meagan could hear my words and the sound of my voice! When I talk out loud with a woman in a video chat, I'm even more nervous than if I were simply typing. Especially when I have to say the sexy things out loud that I'm secretly dying to say! Meagan and I were talking about our looks. I asked her at one point if she thought I looked cute! She said that I did! We spoke about her appearance. I told her that she was attractive as far as I could tell, but that I could only see her body in the chat frame from the shoulders up and that I couldn't make a proper judgement on her total attractiveness. I felt giddiness and nervousness welling up inside me. My dick was starting to get harder, and my voice became nervous as I said "I want to tell you something, but it might be embarassing!" She said "Go for it! It's okay." I was so nervous. Here was my favorite moment. I said something like "I'm wondering what kind of boobs you have!" Just saying the word "boobs" to a woman changes the whole nature of a what was once a polite, somewhat professional discussion. Talking to a woman for the first time about her boobs is a game-changer in the dialogue and in the relationship and opens an exciting door for me. There's no going back to the previous state of a totally innocent conversation after dropping the word "boobs." Meagan said "My boobs?" That was so exciting for me to hear her say! She told me that her boobs are good, they're average, but big enough and good! I told her "You're making me curious!" She said "I'm just here to chat." That squashed my hopes of where this could go.  Here was a lonely bookworm of a girl who never gets out the house and complains about being alone all the time and friends not coming through for her and uneventful and disappointing birthdays spent by herself. Here was her chance to show a total stranger, a guy on the internet she described as "Cute," a young, virile man who was presenting himself as totally available to her in this moment and chatting with his voice audible, presenting his attractive face, and with a man's body and a throbbing dick just off camera below the screen, tucked behind some undies and pajamas. All for her. If she found me as cute as she said she did, why didn't she play along? There was nothing to lose in that moment, no strings attached. If she was so deprived of fun and male attention, here was her chance. I was her man for the moment. I wanted to say to her something like "You don't have to whip your boobs out, but you can just tilt the camera towards your chest so I can tell you how attractive you actually are," but I became afraid to say that, that she might hit the "next" button and perhaps end our chat which is so common when chatting with women on video chats, if they miraculously stop and have the patience to chat with you at all in the first place instead of hitting "next." The conversation never fully recovered and only went downhill from there before she wanted to evenutally go. I could understand why no one wants to hang out with Meagan. She had potential to be interesting, but she preferred to be boring and never take risks or have any fun or entertain the curiosity of the cute guy showering her with positive attention and questions about her life and dreams who turned the conversation to the question of her boobage! If I was so cute, what did she have to lose by tilting the camera towards her chest a little? If she was attracted to me, wouldn't she have any curiosity about my body and my manhood? She mentioned having problems hanging on to friends or getting people to hang out with her. I could begin to see why no one is that interested in her, as she had described earlier in the conversation. I gave Meagan my phone number at one point before we stopped chatting, in case she ever wanted to text me. That was already at least a week ago, probably longer now, and I haven't heard from her and don't expect to. I'm sure I jerked off at some point afterwards, though, disappointed that I didn't get to do it for Meagan, for her to watch me or to participate along with me, or to show me her boobs while I stroked myself for her. Wouldn't it be something if Meagan was a visitor or a member or a reader here on SoloTouch? My current profile picture shows my face and my penis together in the same picture. How she would react to find her name here and read my inner sexual thoughts? Would she be repulsed? Or could we only subscribe to wishful thinking and hope that she would be turned on at this story and at the sight of my erect penis posted for the world to see, and for her to see for the first time! Would she masturbate to all of this right now? Would she feel sorry that she didn't play along that night? Would she finally text me or call me or show me her boobs? I can't wait to video chat or skype with a woman and masturbate with her. I can't wait until the next woman shows me her boobs or chats with me openly and accepts me for being the boob-loving masturbator that I am. I would enjoy talking to a woman on the phone who knows what my penis looks like and approves! The idea turns me on! I haven't had luck with a woman in real life for so long! Perhaps I could be masturbating with a woman soon, maybe someone in New York, let's say... In life we often have to wear a metaphorical hat of politeness and professionalism and get through a day with many non-sexual conversations, polite, boring, unfulfilling conversations. It feels great to cast that aside and whip my dick out without be judged, and explore the horny feelings to their logical, horny conclusions and possible ends, and boob sightings and horny chats and orgasms, and if we're lucky, real life fun with a partner! What would people in my life think if they found me on here? What would the women think? Would they be shocked and disgusted? Or would they finger their pussies reading this? Would this be a turn off or a turn on? And is this a turn-on to the stranger reading this on SoloTouch while simultaneously being an unwelcome and controversial shock and turn-off to the woman or acquaintances in my real life who might catch me on here? If someone from real life saw me on here jerking off in these stories with my dick out, would they be too shy to let me know that they recognized me? OR would they confess that it's them, that they saw me, and that this is something really hot and erotic? In the meantime, I'll just have to post my horny stories, and jerk myself off in the meantime. I hope you masturbated while reading this. I hope you liked something in this story. If you did, let me know. And if you're reading Meagan... I hope you don't mind what you've read...  and I guess you've finally seen my dick now! Are you going to show me those boobs? Did you touch yourself to this? And even if you're name isn't Meagan, but you have boobs... and you're at least in your twenties... I wouldn't mind getting to know you better too, fellow masturbator.