Since You Asked

This is an expanded reply to a private message, which I felt like posting. Thanks everyone, I've been enjoying some of your heartfelt and emotionally graphic descriptions of your celebrations of life. And thanks to the people who have written to me. I love to hear from you. Since you asked yes, I do drink my semen - when I can. I like to take the whole ejaculation from my hand. For it to be really good, I like my ass fucked, and I like to be in front of a mirror, with my legs spread. Preferably there is someone I care about watching, but then when I'm alone and I really get into it that's really really hot. I like to fuck my ass a lot, I need that feeling of being penetrated, it's so organic and liberating and it stretches my entire being open. Most of all it makes me want to ejaculate really well, from a deep place both emotionally and physically. Ejaculation is the most pleasurable aspect of my male sexuality (not involving women), except for burning with the desire to drink my cum, and actually doing it, when it's really good - and sometimes it is very, very good. I do have the whole thing with the urge passing after I ejaculate, so sometimes I have to psych myself into it, and I do that by talking to myself and saying "I want to drink your semen" to myself and "I love you" and that kind of thing. That really gets me going. Having my ass fucked, with a dildo that I can sit on usually, is really good because the orgasm is focussed around my core and it's more explosive and emotionally shaking. I want that. I like having my entire personality rocked, down to my soul. Finally I cum, sometimes fast, usually a lot slower when I have company, I let myself let go fast when I need to, that is, just get it over with and spill out the semen and have it there to meet and confront and drink - and it's always an intentional act of giving and receiving. My body is very well trained at this point: I ejaculate into my palm and, before the shuddering climax has passed, my hand is up to my mouth and I suck in my semen and hold it in my mouth, my heart shaking my body. Sometimes I smell it first. I really like how my cum smells. It smells fresh like a garden or a forest. I could smell it for hours. If there is someone there, I almost always open my mouth and show them my semen, with my eyes open. This is almost a religious experience, to have that total acknowledgement. When I swallow it's another world, a release and acceptance and experience all at once. Sometimes it's really shocking or even frightening and I wonder what on Earth I could possibly be doing. Sometimes the emotion of this takes me deeply by surprise. After that I usually sleep. But sometimes I go out into the world, secretly knowing that I've just swallowed my own orgasm. I have fantasies of going into public with my semen smeared on my face, dried off but still there. Sometimes I put it on my belly and chest and dress and go out that way. If you're wondering this is not the only kind of sex I'm into. I like it all. I have a passionate obsession with female masturbation. I love the smell of cunt, I could stay there suspended for hours before licking my lover out. I love having a woman see my face as I let my orgasm go into her body - but that's making me want to be fucked by a man. I love to hold women as they cum and I love when they masturbate together - that taught me a lot about wanting to masturbate with men. Female bisexuality has truly liberated my male bisexuality. Thank you to the women who have given me that pleasure and opening and taught me so well. The depth and beauty of self-semen drinking has me wanting to do it in front of another man, and to help someone for whom this is a deep desire to do it easily and take in that self-nourishment deeply and honestly. I want to feel the warm jets in my hand and his hot mouth take the semen in, and I want to see his face and talk to him, too. In a perfect world, there would be a close female friend to watch and see and experience this, perhaps several.