Sex Books And Mags

I still had little knowledge about sex. The Talk from my father had told me about sexual intercourse between Catholic husband and his Catholic wife and the need not to use contraception.

I also now knew that it was possible for men to give each other sexual pleasure with their hands, but that it constituted a “mortal sin”. The word in the school yard was that the Devil put hot coals on your balls for all eternity if you died with a sexual mortal sin on your conscience. I wrote about my regular confessions to stop this from happening in another story. I found it interesting that my father also seemed to be risking hell fire because of the intense feelings orgasm by masturbation produced.

One day, I discovered dad’s porn stash. It was kept on the top of the large wardrobe in our parents’ bedroom and was hidden from view from below by a wooden ledge. It included many straight magazines, e.g., Penthouse, Forum and Knave and a couple of sex tutorials, the best of which was The Joy of Sex. It was horny to observe pictures of the man with the beard’s sex life, including masturbation and even mentions of homosexuality. There were pictures and descriptions of a wide range of sexual activities.

Dad's collection also contained Anaïs Nin’s Delta of Venus, the first erotic book I ever read. It contained a surprisingly wide set of situations (masturbation, heterosexual and even some homosexual sex), although it was several decades old even then.

I learnt a lot about sex, especially from the articles and letters in the magazines. The magazines had many pictures of naked woman, some of intercourse and occasionally “one for the ladies” – a picture of a naked man. Never erections or ejaculations, though, but there were articles about male and female masturbation, so I now knew that most men did what I enjoyed doing when I was alone.

There was a vibrator. It didn’t take me long to realise that it offered another route to orgasm. The thought of a sexual experiment had already gotten me hard. I switched the vibrator on and put it on the band that connected my knob with my shaft. It was quicker than normal wanking. Semen was shooting out of my piss-slit within a few minutes.

Until reading the porn, I didn’t know that it was possible for two men to have oral and anal sex together. At last my thoughts about good looking boys at school could focus on what they looked like when they wanked and what it would be like to suck their dicks, or to put mine in their mouths or up their arses.

There was one particular boy who came up in my fantasies. Matt really was beautiful. Dark hair, brown eyes, creamy skin. I imagined him with his trousers and Y-fronts down, playing with his dick as I was. I stroked mine and rubbed my arse with a finger. That felt exquisite. What if Matt was to put his dick in my tight hole? I slipped a finger in. Is this what it would be like to feel his dick inside me? In the fantasy I felt his dick pulse as he came in my arse, and the second he did, I came on my stomach.