Pleasure with Another Man's Semen

I would like to share an experience of deep surrender and personal liberation Once I masturbated with another man's semen. I think it was the hottest masturbation of my life. We had been playing around, he had done things like fuck my ass with a butt plug. I still remember laying on my back with my knees pulled against my chest and just surrendered. He fucked me and said "Yes, be fucked" to me in a way that made me really let go. In case you don't know it being fucked makes me really horny and crave a good orgasm like nothing you've ever imagined. Anyway, we wound up face to face, he was sitting there with a full erection. I'm not really sure if my ass was fucked at that point, maybe. And if so I was sitting up on a butt plug, maybe pressing it into my ass with the side of my heel. Sitting there, I had a plan. I knew what I wanted, and I went for it. I licked my hands and stroked his cock with both my hands, very intentionally. I looked at his face and his eyes knowing this would turn him on and push him to the brink faster. He came, shuddering, and I caught all his semen in my hands, a full hot load. His face looked nice, totally out of control just like it's so good to see a man. Then, squatting right in front of him, I massaged my cock with liquid that he had just released at the height of ecstasy. I masturbated with his semen. It feels so good to say that to you. To think that I actually did this is very sexy now, I'm filled with reverence for what I'm writing. The semen was unbelieveable, so slick and warm and smooth and the exactly perfect consistency, like it was just MEANT to be masturbated with, and doing it I remembered his orgasm that made it for me, and he was watching in stunned post-orgasmic silence, it must have been so trippy and erotic for him to see this. But I know how much he loved my surrender and so I showed him outwardly, moaning and orgasmed looking into his face, ejaculating all over myself. -- At the time, and in retrosect, both, I understood that by masturbating with this man, who was considerably older than me, I was symbolically masturbating with my father. This felt right. I'd had many phantasies as a child of being caught masturbating by him. I didn't really understand this but the feeling was so strong I was in no position to stop it. But it never hapened. With my older lover, I really loved for him to see my face when I came, and when I was penetrated; all of our sessions involved my ass being fucked. I have always wanted to send my father one of these stories, of being fucked or any of the ones in which I drink my cum. But I've never nad the guts to do it. And yet somehow I feel like he has a right to know or like it would help him on an emotional level somehow. But it could also be a total embarassment and little else. I might have to do something, anything to seek his approval of my masturbation, orgasm, ejaculation, drinking my ejaculation. I'll practice typing the words. Father I drink my semen.