My Sexual Awakening

I was a very awkward and very horny kid when I started noticing girls, but I got into them in a big way even though I was very awkward around them. I'm embarrassed to remember that I had pictures of girls in swimsuits from magazines on my wall and I'd kiss some of them when I thought nobody was looking. My sister caught me once and teased me about it. I found my dad's collection of playboys from the 60's and 70's around this time. I would spend a long time just looking at them and getting so unbelievably horny. I found other sexy books my parents had lying around too, I couldn't get enough of them. I was just a really horny little kid who was aching for some kind of sexual experience. I remember there was this girl I had a crush on, Bridgette. I remember her sitting in front of me in class and I'd just run my eyes over the curve of her back and what I could see of the outline of her bum through her pants. There were also some girls who liked to wear tights to class and I got really, really horny staring at their lower regions when nobody was looking. I would daydream a lot to give me that sexy, horny feeling. I wanted to touch a girl's body so bad! I thought about it all the time, but my dream would go mostly unfulfilled for several years. I say mostly because there were small exceptions. This one time in my 7th grade class, we were lining up to get something from a cupboard. The girl in front of me leaned down to get whatever it was and deliberately pushed her little bum against the back of my hand, wiggling it around a bit. I was too shy to talk to her after that, and she never showed any inclination to talk to me. I think she was just trying to give me a little thrill, and it worked! That got me so horny it wasn't funny! I wanted more, I think maybe to a little bit of a creepy extent. I was an awkward teenager with raging hormones. I tried to get in as many inconspicuous feels of girl's bodies as possible, rubbing up against them in a crowd or whatnot. One time I discovered that in a certain class the aisles between the desks were a little tight, and if I innocently grabbed the corners of my desk girls might pass by and have to turn sideways and I'd get a brief feel of their little bums. A couple of girls seemed to have caught on though, because they waited until I took my hands away and rushed by, and I heard one of the say to the other "Should we say 'Psyche!'?" I was mortified at having been caught like that! I guess I really went overboard with it. The girls probably thought I was really creepy. My only excuse, like I said, is that I was a little horndog with raging hormones and had no idea what to do about them. I'd heard about masturbation from sex-ed and I believed them when they said it was natural and nothing to be ashamed of. But I didn't really think much about it, and I'm amazed that I didn't think to try it earlier considering how horny a little kid I was. I decided to see what it was all about when I was about 13, in grade 8. At this point in my life my parents had sent me to a boarding school hoping it would improve my academic performance. It was actually one of the worst years of my life, constantly missing home and being teased by the other boys. But on the bright side, I found an outlet for my misery in masturbation. I decided to experiment and see what it was all about. I tried touching my penis in the washroom a bit, but that didn't seem to do much for me. I waited until night time when I was under my covers. My roommate played music at night so I had some sound cover, and I decided to start playing with my penis in earnest. Since childhood I'd played with it in the bathtub and stuff, wiggling it around and getting it kind of hard, but this time it was different and the feelings that welled up in my penis were so much better than what I'd experienced before. Soon I as moving my hand up and down my shaft feeling these delicious waves of pleasure. It was so good! I thought it was just awesome! When I finally came, the shudders wracked my body and I just remember thinking before I fell asleep "So this is what all the fuss was about!" After that I kind of went overboard with masturbation just because of the novelty of it. I'd find any excuse to sneak off and play with my horny little penis. Some of the other boys noticed and I got teased for it - boys can be such assholes. But that was the start of my lifelong love of masturbation. I love to masturbate, and I love to hear girls' masturbation stories, about how they first started and how often they do it and when they get horny - all that kind of stuff. Any girls who liked my story and want to chat, just let me know!