My Perfect Ritual

I’ve been quietly addicted to intensely exploring myself for many many years. I have a totally healthy relationship with my wife and we enjoy extreme kink together, but she knows I also need time on my own to explore my own body and mind. 

I’ve been enjoying reading the masturbation rituals on solo touch for a long time and I’ve finally decided to share some of my own experiences with all of you. I deeply encourage comments so I know if you’re enjoying it, as it takes all of me to share these incredibly personal moments right now. 

I have a very busy life between work and home and travel but when I find myself with some precious alone time I always prioritize carving out several hours a day to get extremely kinky with myself. I generally start off in my own head just mapping out what fetishes and thoughts are turning me on the most and how I can act upon those thoughts later in the day. I start to play out extremely detailed narratives In my head and notice myself getting harder and harder as time goes on. In fact during this stage I often end up with small orgasms that come and go as I focus on my throbbing cock and tensing and releasing my asshole without going anywhere near them with my hands. 

By the time I’m even considering to go beyond just thoughts, I usually have a wetness of precum starting to make that first touch above my underwear feel incredibly damp and warm. The smell of that moment is indescribably intimate. 

 I love to start by getting completely naked, taking all the covers off the bed, dimming the lights, laying down towels, and taking out the gorgeous leather bag of toys my wife and I share and enjoy. I carefully place each toy on the towels while getting intensely excited about what I intend to do with each of them. Sometimes I find the smell of the toys start to turn me on even more in ways I don’t understand. 

Once the room is ready, I run a warm shower and completely shave my cock and asshole until they are

Soft and hairless. I then move into the shower where I enjoy the rain shower head above and attach an adjustable enema tip to my handheld. I then remove the large drain cover from the shower to allow anything I expel to wash clean away. Once I’ve fully cleaned myself out I will sit on the movable stool in the shower with my shaved ass hanging over the back of it. I will then insert a cool stream of water up my naughty hole while intensely pulling up on my ass. As I do this I will start to push out the water at the same time and this action always nearly brings me to orgasm. In fact as I do this I often watch myself push small beads of pre-cum from my cock. I could do this part for hours but I tend to stop once I know the water coming out of me is crystal clear.

By this point in my ritual I feel completely high and in a near constant state of orgasm but my ability to hold off completely exploding is very strong after so many years. I then move over to the bed and begin to lube up my cock, balls and asshole while dangling my feet in the air. In that same incredibly vulnerable position I will then just start rubbing myself and sliding each individual finger into my asshole to get it relaxed and ready for more. I will then begin playing with some of  our smaller anal toys and will focus on pushing them up against all the different parts of my perfectly clean, soft and relaxed inside walls. As I work up to larger anal toys I will usually also insert an anal spreader to gradually gape myself as much as I can. As I open myself up I will then fill my anal cavity with lube until it is almost completely full. 

I then start to focus on the width of the toys by trying to expand my hole as much as possible with bigger and bigger toys. Once I feel sufficiently stretched and invaded,  I like to focus on depth play . At this point I’ll move to a long slender anal toy that can snake as deep in me as I will allow. I will clench down along the different sections of it to make my body more keenly in touch with where it exists inside me my totally welcoming body. Once I start this depth exercise I know I won’t be able to hold for much longer at all. 

At this point I usually take a very kinky turn and go to the kitchen or other parts of the house to masturbate on the floor or even look for items from the fridge to start devouring with my hungry little fuck hole.  I may even lie face down on the floor and start slowly peeing while I thrust against  the wet floor and cover myself and even taste my warm piss. 

I am now feeling like the most sexual object that ever existed. All I have is absolute sexual desire, lust and love and I just want to express that with more freedom in myself. The final orgasm is totally secondary at this point and the state I’m in is one of the most incredible feelings of my life. If any person offered or asked me for absolutely anything in this state I would happily oblige in any way available to me - whatever is presented I would take it to make others try to feel the way I do in that moment. Inevitably I will then erupt with an explosive orgasm that lasts for several minutes…the last minute or so I just lie there while the muscle contractions continue and my anus and cock pulsate uncontrollably. 

Historically I would then feel shame and regret as I lie on the floor surrounded by any toys, covered in cum, sweat, lube and even my own urine. I lie there with an asshole I have stretched and abused, and a cock I have strokes until it’s completely raw. But with some age I am now so proud of myself after this incredibly personal and exploitative adventure. I feel joy that I am not afraid to do what makes me happy and this makes me feel comfortable about always exploring further, with the absolute caveat that nobody on this planet  is negatively impacted by my sexual impulses. As long as that is true I will enjoy every minute of it. 

One fantasy I have recently had is allowing my wife to watch as I take myself through my routine. I love the thought of binding her up in a super kinky tie and then just completely ignoring her as I go through each and every step as if I’m completely alone.  Should I?

I’ve enjoyed this very much. Love to all.