My Mock Cock

Because I just adore my woman's toes and love to suck on them, it occurred to me that I truly don't know where the rhythms and the patterns I come up with come from. I mean, I didn't know how it was, that what I was doing, was coming about. Particularly with her big toe, where I love to just chew on the knuckle of it, with my teeth shielded of course with my gums. I started wondering about myself. Seems I have quite a gift for sucking on things. Her feet just drive me insane and at 60+ years, I can work break-my-hands hard massaging them, in hopes of full access to her toes!We had this dildo that had a great size and shape, but it smelled horribly of fresh cast plastic, no matter how many washings, so I threw it out. She always noted how it didn't feel real, because it was solid. It didn't have the dual layer density in the body and the head didn't get softer than the body as it does with a real person. So I looked on amzn, found an inexpensive one with good reviews and bought it as a replacement. Looking at the pictures, I didn't like the way that the head or glans connects to the rest of the shaft, with what I thought was an overblown ridge and trough between the shaft and crown.Quite frankly, we haven't been having much sex since the operation. I can only get a penetrable erection for a matter of seconds and then it's gone and that's just at certain times, like upon waking up. I certainly can no longer command an erection; it's just that it happens sometimes and if I grab it right then, I can successfully work to orgasm. Among other ways. But expecting another to snap into the same place in that amount of time? I can see why we haven't been doing much. I can no longer take the bull by the horns, as I used to.Yet, I'm still as passionate a lover as I've always been. That part remains intact, even though there's no prostate making seminal fluid, nor communicating with the brain, "Man, I gotta let this go soon!" It's been well received I'll tell ya, I break my hands working all over her body. I'm actually worried I'm going to wear my hands out or get arthritis or something. She won't let me lick her pussy and I really have a jones for that, so I warm up one of my toys in my 60 C oven for a few hours and sink my face into it after a good coconut oil lube.I love to lick the simulated pussy parts of a well done toy. Yes, the little bumps and ridges cast into these plastic encased cyber-skin castings of Heaven can be felt on the lips and by the tongue. I love the details, as abstract as they may be; my tongue and mouthparts certainly recognize the various parts of the pussy the manufacturer attempts to simulate. Some are done really good! Like the clitoris on this one I just got, nice and big and meaty. Someone should make one out of that dual density shit, so the clit could be just a little harder and a little stiffer than the surrounding tissue."So what about this cock," I found myself thinking - not too long after it arrived. I knew I bought it for some experimentation after being revolted too many times by the smell of that other one. Was tonight the night to try and see what I can get going? I could scare the shit out of myself! What if I find out I'm a homo? What if I'm a guy that doesn't like men in that way, but likes to suck cock for the hell of it? Do I want to open the 'ol box of Pandora? The next place I found myself, I was putting the new silicone, double density cock into my oven. A few hours later it's uniformly heated to about 58 C - Yum! A couple hits off the pipe and I'm well into my most lovey-dovey state.When the time came I removed it from the oven, unwrapped it from the towel and slathered it down with coconut oil. Then I took it to my bed. Under the covers, it is going to keep me and it - the both of us - warm for a good long time. I try to imagine what a realistic position for it might be, to see if I react differently than just shoving it in my mouth from random directions. Sure enough, when I got the crown pointing up and the tube at the base pointing down, it immediately seemed more realistic. An extremely pleasurable sensation came over me as I coaxed the tip into my waiting upper lip, with my tongue ready to glide into the crotch shape at the glans bottom.With the slippery coco oil leaving zero friction, I let just the tip glide into tightly parsed lips, meeting the little dent in the end to simulate the pee hole with the tip of my tongue. A couple flicks there, I then begin to explore the shape of the end of this penis, finding the top of the crown is cast with a little flat part in the middle. Using my "soft chew" I do, squeezing this glans with my tongue resting on the tip, then gently letting go as I roll my lips into a kiss shape and provide several of those to the glans end - while the tip of my tongue plays in and around the simulated pee hole. Its shape is impeccable and I really respond to what sensations the tongue is telegraphing to the brain while working on it there. No one's going to get infected or sick because of it.I decided to just let go at that point and see where the currents carry me. It didnt take very long to find out I'm one passionate cocksucker. What I wondered about with her big toe applies also to a cock like this one. I'm amazed at the moves that seem to be built right in, welling up from deep inside me. Like that little tilt of the head while rocking the upper lip over the crown edge and back. Or kissing just one half of the glans with the upper lip on top, the lower riding along the ridge bottom. Where do I get this slow turn to face the glans directly and then slowly and with intent take it in on up to and over the crown? It's not like I have to watch any porn to see how it's done. Just from being how I am, like a duck takes to water; I'm sure I could make happy...Oh, never mind.The best part of playing with my sex toys is, same as with a real person, making them cum. I got this double ended lips/pussy that when I push on the lips end, the simulated clitoris on the pussy end just rides over my stiffened tongue...as if in spontaneous waves of contractions, all being controlled by my other hand of course. It's so fun to just make her cum 'n cum 'n cum 'n cum on my tongue. After a few sessions with this pussy where I'd get better and better at "making her cum" spontaneously, it seems I now know a little bit about how to "push" on the opposite end. Can I translate that into a sweet, pulsing (minus the shots of course - like me!) orgasm out of this cock?Well, I can at least do my part, by sucking tightly with my mouth with the acted out rhythms of the first few spurts, then decaying the cadence all the way through and beyond a pulse every 2 seconds. I can't seem to make this artificial cock have any life in it regarding IT presenting a good orgasmic throb into my mouth - the best I can savor is the warmth the silicone plastic holds and the beauty of its shape and details. And that deep groove between the glans crown and the shaft I was complaining about in my thoughts beforehand? That's now some Heaven for me. With it oriented so the crown of the glans is resting on my tongue, its base pressing into the roof of my mouth, I await the eruption that should just about fill my throat. At that point, it's certainly not hard to imagine.Looks like I've got a new "friend" in the closet. Hope no one reads this story's copy off the family server!