My Girlfriend Just Kills Me!

I've been dating this new chick lately. The problem is, she's afraid of sex, even with a condom. Being a nurse, she's become practically paranoid about disease. I can't say I blame her. But, there's no sex between us. On the other hand, she's a mutual masturbation freak. We pretty much can't have a date without masturbating each other, or or just doing ourselves side by side before we go out, then again when we get back. Lately, I think as a concession to me, she's come up with something new that just kills me. 'Killing Me Softly,' as the old song goes, in a good way. She knows I'd rather fuck. So one evening she let me rub the tip of my penis against her vagina. She thought the action against her clit might get her off, and at the same time, I'd probably like the extra closeness. In her mind, it was almost fucking. To me, it was kind of a torture. First, I was so close, but couldn't push in. It was everything I could do not to get my dick in her. I tried just putting the head in like an inch, but she was immediately like, "unh, unh.' But the real reason it was a torture, is that she started rubbing the head of my dick up and down against her short trimmed cunt hair. It sent an immediate kind of intense tickle throughout my body. It made me flinch and pull away. Seeing that, she laughed and did it again. And again, the super-intense tickle-like feeling. I pulled away again. She said, "What, can't you take it?" "I don't know. Maybe." I braved up and decided to let her do it some more. It might be fun, even though it was horribly intense. She went to work, rubbing my cockhead against her mat of short hairs. This time it was up and down, up and down. She didn't stop. It was all I could do not to roll away. I mean, it was so intense, a super-hard challenge. Fortunately, I'm the kind of guy who likes challenges. She kept doing that for like five minutes until she had a huge orgasm. I had nothing, other than losing sensitivity, so it wasn't quite so bad as it started out. After she calmed down, she jerked me off, which was nice. Very nice. Now here's what happened: Almost every time we get together, she begs me to get her off this way. It kills me every time. It's just too squirming, yelling, crazy, intense. Yet I love it! I've ejaculated a couple of times in the process, pulling away from her and finishing myself off with my own hand, because I know she'd be afraid of getting sperm 'in there.' One time, it was strange. I didn't really feeling it coming on. Part of the tickle intensity is a sort of 'gotta pee' feeling. I've never paid it any attention. But on this one occasion, it became super strong, and a squirt of pee came out of me involuntarily. I ran to the bathroom, thinking my bladder must be full, but the feeling of needing to urinate subsided, and nothing more came out. Weird, eh? So anyway, that's what we've been doing, and I swear, I'm liking it as much as or better than sex. [The picture above is not us. It's just a fun public domain thing I found online.]