Mature Woman's Awakening

I have wanted to share the evolution of my personal journey.  Sex and satisfaction did not go hand in hand for many women who are sixty to eighty years old (born before 1959).  I came from a strict family and I did not enjoy masturbation until I was free to do whatever I wanted with my body.  It was thought of as not nice.  My husband caught me masturbating and made me feel so dirty I never did it again – until he was no longer in the picture.  The feeling of another woman touching your most intimate parts is almost impossible to define. The first time a woman brought me to orgasm orally I realized what I had missed for years.  I have amazed myself. I never had any interest in looking at another woman let alone being with another woman. I never understood how a woman could be attracted to another woman until I had sex with another woman and realized how good it could be.  I now realize that many women are attracted to the naked body like I am and it is not weird. It took me more than fifty years to comfortable with my body.  Part of me feels like I am eight years old again because my curiosity keeps adding questions for me the answer.  For the first time, I am at peace with how my pussy looks because I realized so many other women look like me. I realize some women have their vagina opening between their legs and not visible while they're standing up while most are visible from 3 feet away.  I never knew there were five main types of vaginas, even though there are many variations: Ms. Curtains, Ms. Tulip, Ms. Barbie, Ms. Horseshoe and Ms. Puffs.  I never knew there were nine types of boobs: Asymmetrical, Athletic, Bell shape, East-West, Relaxed, Round, Side set, Slender and Teardrop. There should be a seminar for women our age who lose or no longer have husbands. They need to learn to appreciate their bodies because most of them have had sex in only one manner as part of their lives. I realized six months ago the sex I experienced my entire married life is nothing compared to what was available orgasms I could have enjoyed.  Men don't understand our bodies and often times did not bother to try and learn. I have determined playing with a vagina is so much more fulfilling than playing with a penis. I am not angry at men, I am angry at all the men who never knew how to please me orally.  I am not angry at my husband I am just angry that he was so ignorant to what would please me. I really don't hate men but I did realize that we always seemed to do what they wanted and we were left without fulfillment.  I never thought I would NOT crave a penis in me. I spent many years masturbating with a dildo to substitute for what was missing and it was my go-to toy.  Now I am using my fingers and imagining they are another woman's fingers and have no need for my dildos since my first same-sex experience.  Now that I've experienced sex with a woman I cannot wait until I experience it again.