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Learning By the (Big) Book

Posted by: anon2imp Age: 15 then Posted on: 18 Sep 2018 3 comments
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I've got a few more stories I can tell, probably over the next month or so. It feels great to finally have a place to talk all about my weird experiences. Here's how I learned to masturbate... it's a really weird story.
My school had sex ed at ages 10 and 13. I understood why it was important, but all they really talked about at age 10 was "wet dreams", "your parts and their parts", and general puberty stuff. I pretty much was left to figure out that one fit into the other. Age 13 I knew what the act of sex was, and what being sexy was, kinda, not really. All they talked about was how to protect yourself from disease when you did it. I didn't really get it. I had to wonder, "Why would people do all of this protection stuff if you're not going to get pregnant that way? Isn't that the point?" So yeah, Age 14, almost 15. I was tired of not understanding anything about sex. So as one would have told innocent scholarly kids to do, I turned to... heh, the dictionary. (It was mostly because I was scared to use the internet for this kinda thing. Plus, I had a really big dictionary.) Well anyway, first word I looked up was just sex, and went from there. I came across a lot of terms... Sexual intercourse (oh so that's how it works), which led to coitus and copulation (aka, other animals can do it too) sexual feelings / stimulation (wait, you feel something in your body? huh), semen and seminal things (already learned all about it). Moved on to vagina and found vulva and later clitoris and labia as well as all things breasts (this will matter later), all the test- words, found andro- is the male version of gyno-, and from just "intercourse" I got "see anal and oral" (I legit didn't know oral was a kind of sex and not just dental care) and etc... I asked my parents a year prior what "gay" etc. was (yeah, I was that sheltered) and I knew what pornography was, and why it ws taboo, so I was good on that front. I was learning all about the other differences between girls and boys, how it all fits together, and that- surprise, it's supposed to feel good. Things such as... "Oh my god THAT'S why suck is an insult!" and "People really go in the wrong hole on purpose?" and "I wonder what it would be like to be a girl for just a day..." popped into my head, and I'm thinking to myself, "how in the world is this all supposed to feel good?" So some time when I was 14, I was on the topic of breasts and got around to mastoid and mastectomy and there it was- masturbation. Erotic stimulation especially of one's own genital organs commonly resulting in orgasm. I knew "erotic" and "genital" well enough to know this meant... people can have sex by themselves and it works! But "orgasm"? That's a new one. Wonder what that is... Orgasm- Intense excitement, especially the rapid pleasurable release of muscular tensions at the height of sexual arousal that is usually accompanied by the ejaculation of semen in the male and by vaginal contractions in the female. So THAT'S how it feels good! Your body has a cool reaction to it that's fun to experience. I wonder if it really does feel good? Should I simulate sex and trick my penis to try it? Is that how to masturbate? So... my first attempt was putting it between my legs, squeezing tightly, and rocking back and forth on my side in bed. I got an erection but that's it. No dice. I tried laying on top of it, and rocking forward and back. Am I supposed to feel anything? It's calming, but there's no "stimulation" Should I use my hand and slide up and down like that? It feels awkward, it's not working... Someday I'd have to figure it out. When I had just barely turned 15 (I might've still been 14 though) I finally had the courage to use my recently acquired private access to the Internet to look up this stuff and figure out how to masturbate, and fill other loose ends. I found out that girls masturbate by stroking the clitoris, not filling their vagina. And that an orgasm feels really good, and that you get some good hormones as a benefit, but not how it actually, physically feels. And after a very long time of searching (seriously, I wasn't kidding about being 15) I finally found it- I WAS supposed to use my hand like that, after all. I was so upset it was hiding in plain sight this whole time. (And, of course, that everyone I knew had probably already figured it out like 4 or 5 years ago.) So I had to try it... the next night. Story time. Once everyone in the house was asleep, high up in my loft bed I pulled down my boxers and got my penis hard as I always had. And I did as I had a couple months prior- stroked up and down, like pumping. I layed on my back and got way deep under the covers. And this time I didn't stop, I just kept going. And it finally felt more than just calming. It really felt like something- a tingly feeling underneath my penis. I had to keep going, but I already felt like I had to pee. So I had a really bright idea and rushed to the bathroom, feeling like I was about to pee myself, aimed into the toilet and finished myself off. My whole body started freaking out, it was so weird the first time. It was like my body's potential to feel good was awakening for the first time. Everything felt exhausting, and every muscle was firing off those same tingles. I was too scared to enjoy what was happening, as the semen started rising up and filling, ready to burst. And for the first time, I felt what it was like to ejaculate. I finally saw my own semen, and it was exactly how I'd heard it would look. It was doing it all on its own and I couldn't control it anymore, I was freaking out inside my head. But... I wanted it to feel good, and it definitely was a feeling. And as it quietly calmed down, I, fully exhausted, panting, and in shock at what my body just did, was hesitant to say I enjoyed it, and was thinking "this isn't for me, I won't do this again until I'm ready", but knew deep down that I could enjoy it. Three nights later I started in the bathroom, did it right, and each consecutive time I got more used to it, and enjoyed the feelings more now that I knew what was coming. And it was all downhill from there. I've done so much more experimentation with masturbation. I had to learn everything secretly on my own time. I kept learning about sex stuff, and finding what I like and don't like, and different ways I can make the experience better. And I got really good at it. And now, several years later, here I am, recalling that entire experience on some website just like the one I used to figure it all out in the first place. I guess my next story should be how to masturbate for the very beginner...