I finally learned to love myself and embrace my sexuality.
When I was a younger man, I thought masturbation was something to get me by when sexual intercourse wasn't a possibility. I would jack off like I was on a mission. I didn't allow myself the opportunity to enjoy it fully. I felt ashamed that it felt good to play with my cock. I would jerk quickly to get to an orgasm. Then I started dating and developed some foreplay skills. After my first marriage went up in flames, I was alone again. I didn't masturbate much during my marriage as my wife at the time would generally give me a hand job from time to time. After being on my own for several months, the tension was building. I still felt weird enjoying my cock until I found the book "Sex for One" by Betty Dodson. It changed my life forever. I got involved with some experiential learning groups that taught me that it was okay to embrace who I was as a man. They reinforced a sex positive ideal. So, I learned to pleasure myself in earnest. I took time to feel my penis and look at it in the mirror. I learned to make love to myself like I made love to the women I dated. My confidence blossomed, as well as my love life. I became a better lover. I really learned to enjoy my cock. Taking time to feel the shaft and head. Stroking slowly, playing with my balls and edging into bliss. I eventually started masturbating in front of lovers. I was shocked at how much they enjoyed watching me while I watched them. My wife and I play together quite often. She gets super hot when I play with my cock. The experience has really opened up my sexuality. Quite honestly, writing this submission is a total turn on.
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