So it was summer, I was bored. Mum was at work and I was on my own. Mum had 'hired' Netflix and a new smart TV to keep me out of trouble, but the universe was having other ideas. I started watching Girls, a quirky comedy and I loved it. A group of confident young women were exactly what I wanted to be a part of. Early on there was an episode where Marnie rushes off and puts her hand down her tights and starts to pleasure herself. I knew enough from sex ed classes to know that this was masturbating but up to now, I hadn't even been bothered to try.
Then there was a quirky film (quirky is my thing!) called Pleasantville. It's set in an innocent 1950s TV programme, all in black and white, until a brother and sister from our time get transported into the programme. The sister, played by Reece Witherspoon, is brilliant and she gets her on-screen 'Mum' to try some self-exploration in the bath. As she discovers her orgasm, part of the screen goes into vivid colour.
Also there was Fleabag. I'd never seen anything like this, from her vivid description of anal sex in the first episode (and which I couldn't even imagine') to the masturbating in bed listening to President Obama. She wasn't perfect, but she was pretty, she was intelligent and she was funny - could that ever be me? Anyway, put all these programmes together in a relatively short space of time, add me in as a bored teenager with body issues, and a limited knowledge of masturbating from school, and it was a magic mix.
I lay back on the settee, put my hands between my legs and copied what I'd seen. First things first, what I saw on TV and turned me on to try weren't really good at instructing me! But I got enough pleasure which was exciting for me to want to persevere and explore, and that's what I did. Over the six weeks of the summer school holidays, I experimented and experimented some more. I discovered what felt good and what less so. I was cautious and discreet but when I was alone, my hands were always in the middle of me. And I remember that one Thursday morning where my own world exploded from black and white to full colour! I was hooked!
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