I am a dirty wanker

Ever since I was a young boy, 12 years and so, I was jerking off and all my fantasies involved masturbating together with a girl and touching each other, rubbing my cock in her ass an pussy, and no penetration. I did not have access to porn until I turned 14-15, and I felt guilty and sweet when I was masturbating. At first I even didn't have a clue if it is normal or not, if other people do it. But it felt so sweet that once I started, I could not stop. At first I would lie in my own bed, make sure no one is coming and pretend to sleep, while I was masturbating energetically, only with two fingers, stimulating my little cock head. This feeling was so nice, I was literally pinching my cock head, cause my dick was still developing, and I wouldn't take it with my whole palm, cause I was too little, so was my cock :) I used to jerk my little cock head so fast that way, and the pleasure was superb. Sometimes when I want to remind myself of those days, I still pinch my cock head like that, but I am a but careful, cause it hurts a little now, when my cock has reached it's full growth. Another cool thing about those first orgasms was there was no cum :) I felt extreme pleasure when I reached the orgasm, I would even lift my but off the bed and reach with my cock as high as I can, cause it was really uncontrollable sensation. And I didn't even jizz myself, I was clean as new after that :) A years or two after that I started to cum. I had no sexual education and felt really, really guilty the first time. But then continued to jerk off in a bitter-sweet way, fighting with this urge, with this taboo. It felt so great! During the course of my masturbation, I would start slow, imagining an erotic scene, like I was projecting a movie im my head. I would imagine that I was caught masturbating, and then the girl strips while I jerk and, and then we touch each other, then i rub my cock in her ass and pussy, until we both reach the tipping point. I did not imagine sliding it into her ass or pussy, I did not even knew that is the way people do it (most of the time). Other times I would just imagine jerking off in front of her, while she is stripping and bending over, until I orgasm. I have a lot more to share, but wanted to start from the very beginning, and revel myself, little by little. Please feel free to comment this revelation below - positive comments make me horny :) I hope you write something nice and nasty, so I jerk off my cock on your comments later on ;)