First Time Using Myself

I was a late starter because my first time was when I was 17. I know this might sound odd for a boy with overflowing hormones but there are some good reasons for it. First of all let me tell you a little background. I was born and raised in the Middle East so I was raised as Muslim (I left my religion in my 30s) and as you may have guessed I was told that masturbation was a sin or as we call it Haram. And they made sure that this stuck in our minds as they taught us about religion in our schools as well. 

They would fill our heads in all sorts of nonsense during the religion classes, especially how to avoid looking at women and how you might rape her if you stare at her and how you must keep your mind off sexual thoughts. Our schools are gender separated so there were no girls. We didn't even have female teachers.  However there were some schools that would have female teachers in boys' schools but only at the elementary school level. So later on in middle school they would include masturbation in the religion classes as most of us would hit puberty soon and they taught us how we must ask for forgiveness if we masturbated since we are weak and also how to wash the semen in a proper religious way even after a wet dream.

Things tended to get worse in our houses as most of us would grow up with very strict religious parents. Fortunately my parents aren't like them as they have college degrees that they got from studying abroard in the USA. But still in the end they practice religious basics and have those thoughts, so they made sure that we only follow the basic Islamic stuff.

Of course religion can’t stop biology as I heard a lot of boys in my school do it and talk about it. I even witnessed two boys engaging in homosexual acts and they weren’t trying to hide it as they were doing it in class during lunch break and whoever was in the class had to deal with it (the benefit of having gender separate schools). But being the good religious boy who wanted extra points to go to heaven I simply followed all the rules and kept my thoughts and hands off my penis and didn’t masturbate no matter how horny I would get during my teen years. Of course I would get wet dreams from time to time as it was my only way my body would get rid of all my excessive semen in my overproductive testicles but they told us that God (Allah) won’t judge us for that and all we have to do is to simply wash it of in the Islamic way.

And of course due to all that I avoided the boys who were known for being open about talking about girls and sex in schools. And my relatives were all like me. In fact we would watch each other (more like spy on each other) not to talk about girls or skip the hot scenes in the movies and TV shows or any sexual thing like any teenagers do to prove we are better than the other boys and we are all real Muslims. 

But that all changed one night when I was 17 as I was really horny and I would get a random erection all day. So I said why not let’s give it a shot (literally lol). As for my religious side I decided at that moment to ignore it for once especially since I didn’t know the feeling of ejaculation when I’m awake and at will, so my natural instinct got the best of me. I still remember it like it was yesterday, I was sitting at my study desk trying to finish homework and I decided to do it. As the oldest of my siblings, my parents gave me some privileges like allowing me to have my own TV and VCR in my room so I took advantage of that. Of course at that age my penis didn’t need any external stimulation but I decided to make the best out of it and put on a horror movie that had some nude scenes. I think what also made me go for it is that I think that my parents were out but I still locked my room just in case (another privilege) because I couldn’t guarantee that my siblings wouldn’t barge in at any moment.

So I set up my VCR and took off my pants and underwear and sat there bottomless watching the nude scenes while stroking my rock hard teen penis. I remember it felt really good and my penis would become redder and redder with each stroke and the veins would become more visible too. I would stop from time to time not because I was edging, but it was because I was examining my penis that became engine red.  I was in amazement but also felt ashamed because I gave in to my desire and considered that it was not too late to stop and let my body have a wet dream on its own. Also I felt like I was going to pee but it felt different and more intense and that scared me. I would stop but I would quickly resume stroking it after a minute or so.

Of course I kinda knew that I wasn’t going to pee and it was probably my semen but I was young, naive and confused so I kept stopping a little at the very end. After the 4th time I wasn’t even paying attention to the movie as I was totally focusing on my penis deciding if I should try finish this session or drop it but of course my penis took over my mind demanding me to finish what I started. So I stroked away and didn’t stop when I felt I was going to pee and I could swear my penis got even bigger and redder and gave up a huge jerk and suddenly everything went away. I lost all of it. All the pleasurable feelings had gone away all of a sudden and I was left with my hard penis in my hand with a lot of confusion. I thought that I did something wrong that killed the session or I broke my penis somehow. This went on for 2-3 seconds but it felt like an hour. However, before I could even move a muscle I felt a huge urge that I MUST pee and before I knew it I started to ejaculate like crazy. I think I shot 3-4 good long ropes of semen followed by a few shorter ropes but it felt like I was washing a car.

The semen kept rushing out uncontrollably and all I could do was just let it happen in fear but I was enjoying it very much as wave after wave of pleasure hit me in each ejaculation. And after what felt like eternity my orgasm had finally subsided and my penis was still hard and drooling. I was panting and still trying to process what happened as I realized I made a huge mess as the first ropes had reached my chest and stained my t-shirt, not to mention the puddle in my chair.  It was on that day that I discovered that semen stains won’t come off that easily. I wish I could say that after that day I started to masturbate on a daily basis but unfortunately my stupid religious side took over and made me feel really guilty and I didn’t do it again.

However that doesn't mean I didn’t have an orgasm again without masturbating but that is a story for another time. Thank you for reading.