First Time

I was about 13 when I was playing with our family’s vibrating massager.  I hadn’t ejaculated yet, but was beginning to notice the growth of my dick to its 5.5 inches.  Boners were happening and they felt good when I could play with them.  

The day I was messing with the massager, I was sitting in the living room floor of our six room house.  Nobody was in the living room with me but I was in sight of the kitchen where my mom was fixing supper and my sisters were in the back bedroom.  My dad wasn’t home yet.  I was watching TV and feeling horny and started rubbing this massager around.  I used it like you were supposed to, focusing on back, neck, shoulders, then started exploring other areas.  

I slowly took it down to my legs, staying on top of my quads, then I wondered what it would feel like on the growing boner between my legs.  It was pretty nice.  I was afraid to keep it there so I kept moving it away and bringing it back.  It’s “buzz” was giving me a buzz.  I was feeling things I hadn’t felt before and it was a good feeling.  So I kept going back, hitting the weiner, the balls, then my anus.  Oh my, there was some good feelings around that.  I just held it on there a while, thinking that it was less “dirty” than keeping it on my boner.  

But I started to feel this sensation come over me that felt like the pleasure was causing me to have to pee.  I wondered why it felt that way and just kept feeling this new and exciting feeling for a few minutes.  I would move it between my boner and my rectum, and the feeling just got more intense.  I thought, “surely I won’t pee in my pants.”  I just kept feeling and the feeling was more than I could take.

I let go.  I don’t know what I let go of (well, I do now), but I let go.  And when I did, the bliss just exploded.  I felt something shoot out of the end of my engorged dick, which was still in my pants as I was in a semi-public place in our house.  I was scared and delighted all at once.  I set the massager down and turned it off.  I still felt the power of the feeling surging through me, sending waves of tingling pleasure through my body, from my toes to my ears.  My face was flush, my heart racing, and my boner felt so good, but I really didn’t know what had come out of it.  

I told my mom that something other than pee had come out of my dick and she quizzed me about it.  In a few days (she worked at a library), she brought me home a book that was written to help young people understand their bodies and how to use them sexually.  I was too embarrassed to read it but I did look at the pictures.  

I’m glad to say I’ve long since figured out what “cum” is and how to produce it, even without assistance.  And I’ve enjoyed years of getting off.