Finding a Little Time to Pleasure Myself Today

What a hard year it's been. Difficult things at work and in my personal life, and the world is a mess on top of it. It's been hard to find the time and mental space to take care of myself, which includes making myself feel good, giving myself pleasure.  I masturbate routinely, most nights before sleep, though I might go a week or more without touching myself when life gets really busy. But that's just getting myself off, scratching an itch. I'm glad I can manage that much pleasure for myself, but I miss having the time and mental energy for some really good, long, complex masturbation sessions.  Part of the problem is living with a roommate, and in particular a roommate who has her boyfriend staying over about half the time. That can be fodder for a little fantasy, for sure, but in reality it's just kind of a nuisance!  Today I've got a day off work and the house to myself, so I'm trying to have at least a little mini-session. I've been writing porn for myself--mostly elaborate fantasies about being a sex slave today--and I took a good long shower.  I haven't been shaving my pussy at all for the last 6 months or so, and it's been an enjoyable change of pace to have a really hairy cunt again. I like how messy I get when I finger myself, how wet and sticky the hair around my pussy lips gets after a while. I did shave my inner thighs today, just to clean up a little, but my cunt hair is clean and curly. Well, not so clean now after I've been writing porn and fingering myself off and on for an hour or so! I'm getting pretty sticky. I'm wearing a bathrobe with nothing underneath and enjoying walking around the house with it open, knowing the neighbors or cars on the street won't really be able to see anything through the windows as I walk around, but imagining them seeing my big soft tits out with hard red nipples and the dark bush of my pussy between my legs.  I went out to the garage to put some laundry in, and I let myself stand in the garage with my robe fully open, and the garage door open behind me. The cold air felt so good on my tits, made my nipples so hard.  I heard a car on the street, and it made my cunt get wetter thinking about them driving by and not knowing my robe was open on my totally bare body. Sometimes it's a turnon to play with my pussy when my roommate is home, or she and her boyfriend are in her room.  I think about them fucking and fuck my own pussy with a vibrator sometimes, and it's hot to imagine his cock plunging in and out of her pussy while I fuck my own cunt.  And sometimes when they're in the living room outside my bedroom, I finger myself and imagine them coming in to ask me a question and finding me with my fingers pounding away in my pussy, or even ass up with a vibrator fucking in and out of my cunt and my fingers rubbing my clit. But mostly I'm grateful for days like today when I'm alone and I can walk around showing my body to the windows, and moan loud and say filthy things out loud when I finger or fuck myself.  This morning I was fingering my cunt while I was writing porn, and I caught myself moaning a couple times without noticing.  I wonder if my roommate heard me while she was getting ready for work.  I'm going to take my big purple dildo up my pussy today.  That's another thing that's changed a lot in the last 6 months or so.  I haven't really been fucking myself.  I mostly finger my pussy, and mostly that's just rubbing my clit. That's always good, and I can come really fast like that, and I guess that's partly why--I just haven't had the space for more than getting myself off as quickly and easily as I can.  But I miss getting fucked.  I've been using my vibrator a little bit lately, and that's been good.  But today, I just really feel like stretching my cunt open on something big.  I want to take something hard up my pussy and really feel like I got *fucked*.  So I've been fingering myself, and I'm super wet, and in a little bit, I'm going to work my cunt open on my big dildo. I think I'll sit up and work my pussy down onto it, and then once I've got it all the way up my cunt, I'll bounce on it hard and fast while I rub my clit.  Sometimes I like to come with just stimulation on my clit, but sometimes I like to come while I'm getting fucked hard, and that's the mood I'm in today. God, I wish you could all see my nipples right now. They're so hard and red and it feels amazing when I run the palms of my hand over them. I've been pinching them and twisting them and slapping them periodically, so they're nice and hot and red and sensitive.  Just pinching them makes my whole pussy tingle and throb at this point.  It's so nice to have the time for all this! What I want right now is to get bent over and fucked hard, just take a thick cock up my pussy deep and hard, over and over, maybe get my ass slapped until it's nice and hot and red, my tits swaying every time the cock rams into me, my nipples hard and tingling when they get pinched again.  I want to come like that, my pussy filled with a thick hot prick, just pounding my cunt over and over while fingers rub my clit until I come hard, squeezing and spasming around the hard cock while it fucks me through it, hot wetness gushing out of my cunt and all over my thick curly pussy hair and getting the dick all sloppy while it fucks me.  YES.  THAT.  PLEASE.  But instead, I'll fuck myself with my dildo, lower my pussy down onto its thick hardness, make my tight wet cunt stretch open to fit the whole thing inside.  Let myself rock on it once I'm all filled up, let my clit rub against it while I grind and rock and feel it thick and deep in my cunt.  Then maybe I'll bend over, put my face in the mattress, and reach back to start fucking myself, pulling it out of my tight clenching pussy hole and plunging it back inside me, filling my cunt over and over, making myself take the whole cock up my pussy over and over until I'm so wet and open that it just slides right in and out of me, my cunt all opened up for that huge cock.  I'll fuck myself so good and wet and open and take it so hard and deep until my whole pussy is burning hot and sloppy wet and ready to come.  Then I'll let my face mash all the way into the mattress so I can get my other hand under me and into my pussy, and I'll start rubbing my clit while I fuck myself.  I'll finger my pussy just how I like, rubbing around and around my clit just right while I shove the thick hard dildo in and out of my wet cunt as hard and fast as I can.  I'll come like that, wailing and moaning into my sheets and fucking and fingering myself, and I'll fuck myself all the way through it until my cunt is totally spent, just twitching and soaking wet.  And then I'll pull the dildo out and feel how empty my pussy is, how good I got fucked, my cunt all hot and wet and swollen and used.  I can't fucking wait. I've been fingering myself off and on while I write, and my pussy is so hot and slick, and my cunt lips are all swollen and sticky.  My clit is throbbing right now even describing it to you. I'm so ready to get fucked.  I think I'm going to go do exactly a described except I might even move it to the living room and fuck myself on the couch in front of the living room window.  There are trees and mailboxes and a porch between my window and the street, so you'd have to be a pedestrian looking closely to see anything. But I love getting myself off there and imagining it. Maybe I'll need to fuck myself right there on the couch, face down in the couch cushions so I can't even see if anyone comes up to the door, walks by the window, like a FedEx driver or something.  I'm too busy pounding my pussy while he walks up, mmmm.  Okay, yeah, the couch it is, if for no other reason than so I can fantasize about the FedEx driver catching me while I fuck myself.  :) Happy Monday, guys!