Denied by Hand Pussy

So I've been a REAL chronic masturbator lately, and I'm sure as for many of you the bar is very high.. been edging for hours into days and losing my loads to jerk caption pics of girls saying things like "show that handpussy what a stud you are" and talking so dirty to my slutty little handpussy, telling it i'm going to breed it etc as I moan and writhe in shivering, lubed up pleasure, balls deep and unloading. Oh god sorry if I stop making sense just setting up my story is making my peepee rock hard as it twitches in my snug briefs.. Anyway, after a particularly gooned out recent fuckfest with my fist that lasted roughly 30 hours and produced around 9 increasingly small loads of sperm cream, I woke up and challenged myself.. how can i be even MORE pathetic??? The answer came to me like a stroke of genius as I rubbed some lotion on my very-abused hand: Recreate the frustrating relationships with girls from high school and college where I just got used and teased and the best I could hope for was maybe pants soaked with my own sperm that had erupted during some over-the-pants rubbing.

Recreate these relationships but with my hand.

So for an entire day, I took my hand (just the one hand) to get a manicure, took it to lunch, dinner, all the while rock hard at thinking of all the dirty things i wanted to do to it, then finally took it to a movie. I even bought two tickets. A chick flick of course, and one that had been out for awhile so I was mostly alone in the theater.  I sat in the middle of the theater, and thought maybe once the lights went down and the movie started I could convince my teasing handpussy to give me some action. The lights went down and right away my neglected and frustrated little peepee was standing at full attention. "My turn! My turn!" he seemed to beg. But we sat through the previews and my handpussy would barely graze my thigh. By the time the movie actually starts I can feel my briefs sticking to my pants with pre cum ohhh fuck and then finally the little tease grazed right over my twitching cock head and OH FUCK thank god the intro music was at the loud part because I'm sure i grunted as I unloaded a massive batch of beta batter right into my briefs and pants at the slightest sign of attention from handpussy.

Long story short, this happened several more times during the movie, especially when I was staring at the sexy female celebrities and imagining what they would say and how their faces would look if they saw a man in sweatpants in public soaked in his own uncontrollable semen emissions. The smell of so much wasted seed was absolutely intoxicating as I limped out the side exit door of the theater and to my car. 

The feelings and smells were SO humiliating and arousing on the drive home.. can't even score with my own handpussy!!! When I got home I forced myself to watch "alpha betas" fuck their handpussies so hard and fill and cover them with so much creamy cum while my cock was forced to strain and twitch in its own fuckmess, neglected except for some light grazes and the occasional two-finger tuggy over the briefs. Ohh fuck I'm leaking..  I tortured myself like this for about 2 hours before finally allowing myself to pick a soft humpy pillow and go to town (still through my sperm-soaked briefs) while I watched a fistfucking stud flood his tight handpussy with cum and humped to an absolutely MIND-BLOWING cummy.  Wow fuck I can't believe I actually put this in writing I'm so humiliated and I fear I may have just taken an irreversible step in further deepening what I thought was a fully maxed out chronic masturbation addiction as I rub my swollen little fuckslit lightly over the fabric and try not to cum...