Dad And Celibacy

I knew my dad was having personal problems and had been for at least 2 years but I couldn’t put my finger on it, then one day I caught him with another woman, I thought he didn’t see me but he did, that just left me confused and fearing the worst, for days I thought about what I saw thinking they will announce they are divorcing soon and if it had been mum that saw it, it would have certainly been the case.

It must have taken some courage to confront me with it a few day’s later, I only wanted to know why, Well he said it’s not so easy to explain in a few words and if I was interested he would tell me and didn’t really care anymore if I told mother, boy I couldn't wait to hear this.

A couple of day’s later we found an opportunity, but what I heard was incredible, In the 25 years that we have been together, we have had sex 3 times and that was in the first year, one of those times sweetheart produced you, after that it was downhill all the way, we slept together for a short while after that but then she wanted separate beds making all kinds of excuses too many to mention, and persists to this day, We haven’t had sex for almost 24 years. I feel strongly that the fault lies with me. Everything else is fine in our lives, we socialize and travel, we have a good relationship, but we don’t have sex. She has just stopped wanting to have sex with me. It has to be my fault. I feel very unattractive. This is something that I feel embarrassed to discuss, even with my doctor, I’m a living non entity. I am frustrated and defeated. Her not wanting to have sex with me has shattered my feeling of self-esteem, I feel so hurt and incredibly angry that I am being denied something that should be a natural part of our relationship and isn’t, as far as she is concerned, my feelings don’t exist and as far as resolving the issue she doesn’t want to know sweetheart, believe me I’ve tried, I know this may sound horrible but your mother, my wife, is a Narcissistic person, she lacks the ability to understand or care about the feelings of others, it wasn’t always like this but it’s what it’s become, but not with you, but you must have noticed it.

I asked him why he stayed, I stayed because of you Kelly, I didn’t want you becoming like her.

Unfortunately not only have I noticed it but seen it in action, I thought it was just her being defensive but no, this has put a whole new meaning on it, is that why you were with that other woman dad, he just looked at me but I totally understood, dad I think you can add gas lighting to it as well, He asked what I meant, well I know I’m not going round the bend but at times she made me question my own judgment and intuition, also nothing is her fault even if it is and what’s even worse, she has me doing it with my friends, I’ve even apologised for things I know I didn’t do in the house! 

Dad I hate to ask you but have you slept with that woman? No, no I haven't, at least not yet anyway but I want to, Do you still love mother? Of course I do sweetheart and you most of all, Dad if I can accidentally catch you then so can mother or someone else can and tell her, please say you won’t see her again, I love the both of you but we have to sort this out, he said he couldn’t promise anything in view of what he has already said but will try.

That talk was like a nuclear weapon going off, I knew he must still love mum especially after all this time but at least now I knew why I saw what I saw, after that I watched mother like a hawk and I didn’t like what I found out, I’ve seen her tease men to the point where their cocks are almost jumping out of their pants then pour cold water on them, at the time I thought it was a bit of fun, a joke in front of dad, I always thought they went home and made love, but now I realised the joke was on him, no way am I going to turn out like her but I am already becoming like her, for instance The only time I’d let a guy have me was when there was a lot more in it for me! I knew their relationship had turned toxic, she might be happy, but my dad wasn’t and he took it for as long as he could before trying to go elsewhere, all those years of emotional abuse then trying to take back his masculinity with another woman after all these years of being trapped in a celibate marriage, I began to draw battle plans and decided I was going to turn the tables, I realised that my mother was all about control and power plays and dad’s scars of emotional abuse are as ugly as bloody bruises and black eyes.

I was facing a bit of a dilemma, how to stop Dad from seeing this other woman? I said we would have to sort this out but how? There was only one way, to become the other girl in his life, but that would mean giving him what he was seeing this other woman for, I needed to think about this seriously but then a strange thought went through my head, mother seeing dad happy, I mean really happy and not having an affair! At least with no one outside this house! It would drive her crazy! I still didn’t know how though.

I even looked through some of the so called taboo videos to get some ideas for how a girl could seduce her father, It became quite clear that none of these were real,  they were all actors and the girls were more than likely prostitutes although there were a couple of French ones that did look real between brother and sister.

I remembered the times my mother and I would discuss the difference between being erotic and vulgar, she said the mental side of sex that had as much impact on the results than anything, well she had proved that in the past she was a total expert cock teaser, it was the anticipation that turned on men more than anything else.

Dad had been so upfront with me I decided it was time we had another talk when mother was out, I know he wants sex or he wouldn’t be seeing that other woman, a risky strategy on his part and if caught all hell would break loose especially if she found out I knew all about it, I’d be accused of betraying her, he shouldn’t be looking for it out there anyway, I had to put my cards on the table with him.

Are you still seeing that woman I asked him, he said he wasn’t and I said good for you dad, I have something to ask you and I’m out of my depth so please bear with me, what you said about mother is true cause I’ve watched her like you said, she's scheming and manipulative and gaslights everyone, so I totally understand where you are, if she ever got the idea you were having an affair she would set out to prove it and have you watched, but what if it was me, what if I was the other woman in your life and I don’t mean as a daughter, what if I became your girlfriend? Sorry Kelly could you say that again I’m not sure I heard that right, I repeated it, What could possibly be going through his head now? What does a father think when his own daughter say’s something like this?  My dad may be a lot of things, but stupid isn't one of them, You mean me and you, no wonder you didn’t want your mother around, Yes dad I mean me and you, surely you must realize what I want to do for you, mother would never suspect me, and if anyone even got close to suggesting she would tear out their throat! Dad I’m not the little innocent girl anymore, I’ve had a few boyfriends, when mother suggested I get “fixed” to avoid pregnancy I thought she was silly but it dawned on me I could have my cake and eat it, so I did, but now you can too instead of seeing this other woman and no one will suspect us, did you know she wanted me to go out with you just to keep an eye on you, she doesn’t trust you one inch, but with me she does, she thinks I’m like her but I’m not, so next time she suggests I go with you say ok, it will save her asking your friends cause I know she does that behind your back.

Kelly you have obviously thought on this quite a bit, do you realize what you're doing? Yes dad I do and I mean every word of it, when you and mother got married you married into money and it gave you a lifestyle, that gave her power over you until it’s come to this, I think it’s time to turn the tables in your favour, I know exactly what I’ve said and what I’ve offered you, I think this is both our chances to use what we know, just think about it dad and let me know, she tried to create me in her own image, and it almost worked but I saw through her just in time thanks to you, I never meant for you to get hurt but you have been caught in the crossfire, that ends right now dad, my mother, your wife is a rude, entitled, spoiled brat who is morally bankrupt, and she will never change, a few weeks later I got my answer, he would give it a try, My dad is handsome and charming. With very dark hair bright blue eyes and a decent body I thought it was sad a married man, had to sleep in the guest room every night.

Mother is a great one for going to her friends get together’s a few times a month and sometimes she will stay over, many of their husbands worked away and I was never invited, not that I would ever go but I was never asked, I never read anything into it before but it made me curious and there was one coming up at her friends Caroline's house, this may seem unethical and horrible but I decided I would go along around 3 hours after she left and try and see what was happening, in other words spy on her, Caroline's house is big and detached and no one would suspect it, telling dad I would be back soon I took a taxi telling him to stop a few doors down from her house, I walked around to the rear of the house and she had left her back gate open, being as quiet as I could I made my way up to her patio and French doors, her blinds were partially closed but you could still see in, what I saw was almost hypnotic, there was no sound, just four of them in there, mother was between another woman's legs and it wasn’t Caroline's, I would have loved to have got pic of that but I was just to frightened to try, I snuck away quietly wandered to the end of the street and called a taxi, this will hurt dad but he has to know, but I finally felt justified , she must have been doing this all the time at her get together's with different woman while denying dad, no wonder I was never invited but her dirty little secret is out now, when I got back I was furious.

Getting in Dad said he had a call from mother saying she would not be back tonight and was staying over, I’m not bloody surprised I said and he asked me what I meant, I’ve just been to Caroline's dad and I think you better sit down, you’ve been there he said, yes I have but not in the way you think, I spied on mother, I got us both a drink, dad she’s cheating on you but not in the way you think, I saw her alright, I sneaked into Caroline's back garden and peaked through her blinds, Was she with another man Kelly, no dad she was between another woman’s legs giving her oral sex, mother is a fucking lesbian and probably has been all this time, I don’t know if she goes with men there but their was none their tonight, but it’s a possibility, what’s worse is you can’t let her know you know anything, we have to carry on as normal but at least you have me now, and I’m not queer, this is why you’ve the short end of the stick all these years.

If it hurts dad I’m sorry but it hurts me too having seeing it.

I had suspected Kelly, but I could never prove anything, it must have took some nerve for you to do that tonight but at least we know now but not knowing is the worst.

Dad, lift up your glass, A toast, to hard decisions, to selfishness, to satisfaction, to us, and I clinked the glasses together, come on dad, lets go to bed, my bed, he was a little hesitant but he followed upstairs to my room and came in, we sat on my bed wondering what next, I put my hand on his thigh and ran up it, touching his crotch it was clear he was very aroused, I stood up and got undressed, I was anxious and nervous being the first time, but there has to be a first time, I stood in front of him totally naked for the first time, I could feel my pussy beginning to throb, my own father watching me, looking at me and hopefully wanting me, the very noticeable outline of his cock stood out a mile now.

My breasts were level with his head, There was a burning hunger in his eyes I had not seen before, leaning forward he put his hands on my waist kissing my breasts, He sucked hard on one nipple while he squeezed the other, it was an amazing feeling, after a few minutes he stopped and stood up, I undid his belt letting his trousers fall to the floor, his erection was all to obvious now, all I cared about was my dad's pleasure, I got on my knees and pulled down his underwear, I expected to see his cock sticking out from a forest of pubic hair and to my amazement, he was perfectly smooth, his balls felt like velvet in my hand, so smooth and warm, I took just the tip of his cock in my mouth and touched it lightly with my tongue, I took more of him in my mouth, he was bigger than the boys I was accustomed to and his cock hit the back of my throat.

He moaned as my mouth pleasured him, then my dad couldn't hold out any longer and he started to fuck my mouth, holding my head in his hands as he pushed his cock in and out of my mouth, I looked up at him and nodded no and he stopped and let me do it, his balls swung gently underneath as his breathing sped up, suddenly he jolted and ejaculated in my mouth followed by another, I held him there until I got all his cum before I stood up, we traded places 180% and I sat then laid down on the edge of the bed.

Usually when a boy gives me oral they just end up slobbering all over me, I think the neighbours dog could do better than 99.9% of them, dad kneeled down in front of me and raised my legs of the floor onto the bed, my now naked dad licked me and then grabbed my clit between his teeth, gently tugging on it while his tongue continued to tease it inside his mouth, he inserted one of his fingers into my pussy and started fucking me like a small cock while he continued to use his mouth on my clit, he may not have had sex for goodness knows how long but he had not forgot, now for the first time, I was finding out what it meant to have my pussy licked well by a man who knows what he is doing, There's just no other way to describe it but I exploded like a grenade, all I could do was moan with intense pleasure, as if once wasn’t enough he brought me off again, his tongue and mouth seemingly not wasting my juices.

Stepping out of his trousers and underwear dad took his cue and stood up, his now rigid cock standing straight out straight like a monument, stepping forward I felt his cock pressing at the entrance of my pussy, I could feel him as he began to push himself into me when suddenly he hesitated, I looked up at him and nodded it was ok, he just stood there for a few more seconds but who could blame him, certainly not me, he didn't hesitate any further as his manhood slid into me.

It seemed like forever but finally he was completely in me and he felt so big, he began to stroke it slowly in and out of me as I moaned with the intense pleasure it was giving me, he was so deep into me I felt the base of his cock pressed tightly against me, he stopped for a second, lifted my legs up and pushed me further onto the bed getting on himself, I locked my arms and legs around him to show that I also wanted him to stay in me, I told him he could cum inside me as I have been fixed, I wanted to feel my dad give me something no other woman other than my mother had had, and would never get again,  I felt like I was floating, my body felt weightless composed of nothing but wave after wave of the most intense pleasure I could ever have imagined, his breathing and pace picked up, just at this moment my pussy clamped down on his cock like a vice, his cock immediately responded to the tight grip and with one almighty push, his orgasm began, I’ve never felt a cock contract and pulse as much as this, it seemed never ending as load after load exploded from him over filling me dripping down onto the bed sheets.

I looked at him lovingly and kissed him, not the usual tepid family kiss but with all the passion I would give a lover, My tongue slipped into his mouth and he responded in kind, for the very first time we kissed as we should as we shared our most intimate feelings and bodies, we knew our lives our relationship changed for each other, I told him he could have me whenever he wanted, wherever he wanted, every day or even more if he needed as long as it was safe for both of us. We have become totally loyal to each other.

It wasn’t long after that dad had to attend a conference, it was three days in a hotel and mother always hated them, NOW WE KNOW WHY! She asked me if I'd like a couple of days away with him and to watch him, to her amazement I said yes, as a gesture dad said I would hate it but could go if I really wanted to!

It was the first time either of us would have sex outside, it was being held in Ashdown Park Hotel, a beautiful place surrounded by woods.

It happened in those woods the first night! We started kissing and we knew what we wanted to do, so we got of the path and hid in the trees!

I was wearing a dress so I took off my panties and dad took down his jeans and underwear, in no time at all he held me in his arms against the tree with my arms round his neck, what an amazing feeling, the sheer thrill of it as dads cock filled me up and him holding me there while his cum drained out! Of course we had sex every night we were there too, but those woods never went to waste either!

We hated it when we had to go back, I told dad I would report to mum you saw no one and behaved yourself! As far as we were concerned she could have her lesbian life.

Me and dad were content with each other but we still lived our lives as usual, three years of fantastic sex went by with me renewing my protection then that virus and the lockdowns, mother being her bombastic self said it would not stop her and her friends having their social gatherings, trust me she really thought she was that entitled and immune, but she wanted me and dad to stay in the house, he had to work from home anyway, despite our feelings towards her she was really being very silly, it was me who put my foot down and said no one was coming here just in case, in view of everything that was going on she went ahead, she really thought her and her friends were immune to it, getting a call from her she said she couldn’t leave for a couple of days, I joked with dad saying she must be getting a lot of pussy or cock their, dad said so are we Kelly!

When she finally got back was when she started feeling unwell, her outrages behaviour had caught up with her, she got the virus, me and dad couldn’t go anywhere near her just in case, when she was taken to hospital we had a test and it was negative thank god, as bad as she was we wouldn’t have wished this on her, after all she was still my mother, we couldn’t go and visit her even when we were told she was going downhill, she lasted a week and a half, despite all the bad feeling it still hit me getting that call, we were told they would take care of her as no proper funeral could be had but it was nothing to what her will contained, oh yes she left a will, she left everything to me providing dad leaves the house, me and dad was stunned, just how long ago had she wrote this? We had no idea but it was to be her final kick in the teeth to him, I’m not one to swear but I thought fuck it, if that’s the way you to play it I don’t want it either, actually seeing this hurt dad very much, good god Kelly did she hate me that much he said, I just hugged him and cried.

He couldn’t go anywhere because of the restrictions but as soon as it was clear we both moved out and I put the house on the market, I wanted nothing to do with her horrible friends in fact I had my day Caroline, she asked to see me and dad run me over there he stayed in the car, right in front of her husband I said you must miss my mother being as close as you too were, yes we were close I’ll miss her terribly she said, being lesbian lovers I suppose you will too, oh my mother told me all about it and your gatherings, well thanks for the coffee dad is waiting for me in the car and we have to go, don’t call me the house is being sold and we don’t live there anymore, I kept the best till last though, looking at her husband straight in the face I said if you don’t believe me take a look at this, it was a 64gb sd card with tons of pics and video, I took it out of mothers phone, on it of guess what! and with that I left, with mother gone I saw no reason why dad should see it but I have a copy of it just in case.

House sold and living in a new one with my “husband”, I had my protection taken out and we have a gorgeous little boy, I want at least two more though hopefully one of them a daughter, we are so happy with new lives and new friends, the weight of oppression gone it’s wonderful.