Addicted To Sex With Myself

Okay, gonna speed past a few things. This is my first post here and all you really need to know about me is that I’ve been having weird, gratuitous sex with myself for years and I have no plans of stopping any time soon.

Last night I played with myself for hours and it felt so fucking good. I used to be so impatient, but as I’ve gotten older, I can appreciate the thrill of teasing myself. I’ll squirm around on the bed, rub the heel of my palm against my crotch or even start squeezing my thighs together. The buildup is just so wonderfully sweet. I love the feeling of getting wet for myself. Knowing I have such visceral, loving and intense control over my sexual pleasure is one of the best things in the world. 

I used to be so scared to try things when I first started masturbating. I only started to finally enjoy fingering myself a few years ago. It was my first night alone in a while and something about having nothing but myself and an endless stretch of time got me so fucking horny so fucking fast. I laid a towel out on my bed and set up a mirror so I could watch my fingers touch and fondle my warm folds. I groaned and strained to keep my head up so I could watch the first few beads of slick escape my sensitive hole. I spent that entire night fucking myself around the room. After two or three orgasms I found myself on the floor, leaning against my bed with two fingers pumping in and out of my sticky cunt. I hardly even had to touch my clit, it felt so good. (I can literally feel my pussy tingling and pulsing right now guys UGH I’m so fucking horny.)

So whatever. I could literally talk about this forever. You have no idea how elated I was when I found this site. I spent like four hours jacking off while reading countless posts. I seriously don’t think I’d gotten that wet in a while.

Hey, if you’re reading this I hope you’re getting off to it too. Hope that’s cool to say! I just think everyone should have trembling, overwhelmingly euphoric orgasms at least, like, once a day.

So one of the best nights of my life was the first time I orgasmed while high (weed). Holy shit, I swear my soul left my fucking body. It wasn’t even all that sexy. I was wearing thick fleece sweatpants because it was cold as shit and I had a cute little egg vibe pressed real hard against my clit through the sweats. I’d been grinding up on it for a while, just kinda panting and drooling since I was blazed as fuck. But at some point something shifted in my brain and I turned on my stomach, started fucking up onto the vibe like I was really fucking someone. I think I imagined I had a dick and was seriously getting deep into someone’s pussy. It was incredible. I could feel the orgasm building up slow, slow, then all at once. I seized up like I was possessed and groaned stupidly into my pillow for like eight seconds. It was like my pussy exploded in the best fucking way.

After that night, any time I smoked I’d immediately get horny. It was like a Pavlovian response hahaha. Smoke? Get wet. Automatic and instinctual. I had a really good vibrating dildo a while ago, and there were nights I nearly fucked myself braindead with it on the highest setting pressed to my clit. I should buy another one honestly, it made me see stars. 

I wish I had it right now to get me off while I’m writing this. My pussy’s still tingling but I’m not touching it for now. I love the feeling of that aching need and just getting lost in it, you know? That’s gooning, right? I saw some posts about it a few weeks ago and I swear that’s gotta be the hottest thing ever.. being hypnotized by your own body’s sexual needs. A couple times, I’ve tried to let myself be possessed by the need to cum. It works okay, but it’d be so much nicer if I could really let go and just go cuntdumb. 

One of my biggest fantasies right now is getting super high and having a remote controlled vibe pressed to my clit. I don’t care who has the remote as long as they do whatever the hell they want with me, make me fucking beg for it. I wanna feel the slow torture of having orgasm after orgasm ripped away, only to finally taste it again… and then it never stops. I wanna be so shaky, so helplessly drenched in my own cum that I’d barely even feel it if a cock slipped into my hole. But once it started moving, it’d become too much. God, I wanna feel that so bad.

Okay this is super long and I wanna fuck myself now haha so that’s all for now. Hope anyone who reads this was entertained ;) xx