My relationship with my older apartment friend is going well and I am getting more and more comfortable with our sexual contacts. When we are togeather the age difference seems to be unimportant. Some day I expect to date men again, but for now I am not really ready for all the hassles.
Now all I have to do is wait out my son who is becoming more and more agressive with his sexuality. We share a computer and lately every time that I get on line I find that he has been cruising porn sites or chatting with a new camera that he has attached. At first I thought that this would be an outlet for him and that he would be distracted from me. On several occasions I have come home to find him openly masturbating at the computer and sometimes showing himself to others. His computer interests seem to be focussed upon older women.
I have asked him to cover up when I come home and also to explain why he seems so interested in older ladies and he responded that girls his own age are immature. Then he showed me downloaded pictures of women older than me who were masturbating for him on cam. I am shocked that so many women, some in their 50s, would be interested in such a young boy. He told me that I should feel complimented since I am the one who made him be interested in mature women. Usually our discussions lead to him openly touching himself, and several times he told me that he had to masturbate because he was so horny. I always leave the room at that point.
My counseler tells me that he will outgrow this, but I am wondering when. Perhaps when he actually meets one of the women that he has been chatting with.