I know all those agony aunts tell us size doesn't matter but for me it does! My boyfriend is really, really sweet and does lots of things to please me (especially with his lovely soft tongue) but he is just too small. I love him dearly and would never tell him but there are times when I just need to feel something large in me.
I have solved my problem when alone. A few months ago I got a huge dildo off the internet. AT first it was almost a joke - it was the largest I could find and I thought there was no way it would ever fit into me. One night when alone, a little tipsy from some wine and very, very horny I started playing with myself. I got the dildo out and just looked at it, imagining it inside me as rubbed my clit. As I got more turned on I started to rub the toy against my clit and tried to imagine how something that large would feel in me. Eventually as I was getting really wet and really turned on I pushed the head into me. It stretched me so wide it hurt and still wasn't in. I let it slip out maybe a millimeter so it it didn't hurt but I felt sooo stretched as I rubbed my clit hard. I was now really turned on and wanted it deep in me, not just stretching my lips. I broke off playing for a minute and hunted out some KY and covered the toy and me in so much lube it was almost too slippery to hold. I started rubbing my clit furiously again and knew I was close to cumming. I took the dildo and just rammed it into me with one hand as I did my clit with the other. For a second it REALLY hurt but then it just felt good. It was so deep in me, stretching me so much. I came extraordinarily hard. The sensations as my muscles gripped it inside my stretched pussy were amazing.
Every since then, whenever I need to feel that wonderful feeling of being completely filled I know what to do: I just get my toy inside me and diddle away at my clit and I am guaranteed the most amazing orgasm.
I sometimes wonder if my boyfriend knows. Since I have been using my toy I have noticeable stretched myself. My muscle control is still good and I can please him but still I wonder.