In love but trying to stay pure. (semi-fiction i.e based on someone I know if I really was her I wouldn't read this site obviously!)
I think my boyfriend is handsome. Any person who makes me happy often enough will start to look good, so I am no longer objective about his looks.
Yes, he must be or why would I have laughed at his pick up line? It wasn't THAT clever.
We kissed and Kissed, and KISSED, and KISSED!!
I enjoyed it and so did he.
But he complained to me that he didn't like leaving frustrated. That he would stay aroused for his bus trip home which was embarassing, and sometimes even painful for his ... would get sore. I asked him what I was supposed to do about it. I suggested maybe we do our math homework after kissing rather than before to help him calm down. That was not the answer he was hoping for. It also didn't work because neither of us could do math after KISSING!!
His suggestion was that he masturbate before leaving. I was ambigious about that. I don't think it is proper, but I had long known he doesn't share all my values, just the most important ones. When math proved to be a failure, I consented.
The first time, I made him do it alone in the bathroom. But I worried he might be thinking of other girls. And I was pissed at missing out on KISSING!! Time for his stupid ejaculation thing.
So then I made him take a towel to put around it so he could ejaculate while we talked and held hands or (carefully so I wouldn't bump into it) KISS (their was no way to KISS!! without bumping :( ). this lasted about a week. But between my curiosoty and his begging me, I no longer insist on the towel (though after getting some on my clothes I do insist a washcloth be ready! ;) ) and now do most of the rubbing for him. He keeps touching different places on me while I rub him..I like the excitment and I want to keep him happy
But I like the excitment too much, and am frightened lest I go too far and lose part (or all!) of my virginity before marriage. I must not break my hymen, and I should avoid orgasms, but...how can I keep him happy and not lose my self control. I love him sooo much!! Uhhh help? Please someone think of an answer that does not involve trays of ice in my underwear, because I am almost desperate enough to try that and hope for something better.