Only thinking of him...
I have never had feelings for another guy until the end of eighth grade. I had a group of friends that I hung out with in this grade and we were all really close. That all changed but that's a different story. It was our school's last dance and we all had to be dressed up. After this fancy dinner we would have a giant dance in the cafeteria. My friends and I were dancing together, and as fun the guys would pair up with the guys and the girls would pair up with the girls and we would switch with each other. This is when I came in contact with a really cool guy, our hands joined, his were really soft. We will call him 'Nick'. Nick and I danced to about a quarter of the song. I did not really think of it at first but after I got home I got to thinking. I began to masturbate and his picture came to mind.
He is about 5'7' and had a slight upper build. I have physical education (gym) with him this year and I couldn't help but notice that when he changed my eyes were fixated on him. I even saw his dick once, where it was about five and a half inches. This picture never left my mind and I soon began to develop feelings for him. These feelings that I have never felt with a girl or a guy for that matter. I guess he is the only guy I will fall for and I do not know why. I always think about him, and write fantasies about him and me masturbating with each other. Every night while I masturbate I think of him, thinking about his hands being around my dick jacking me off but this is just my fantasy and everytime I think of Nick I cum really fast.
I never accepted myself as being gay, I think of myself being bi-sexual. Although labels do not matter to me at all, if I were to label myself it would be bi because only I know what I feel. I guess the word 'gay' or 'bi' is such a taboo word in this world right now and that people are not accepted when they 'come out of the closet.' So as of now I will not say anything about my fantasies yet to 'Nick'. But one day I think I will and I will again write another story if one of my fantasies were to come true.