I have made some Hard Choices in my life but the latest was one that required some deep thought.
Having been widowed twice in the past three years I was left with a void that was frightening. Call it serendipity or Divine Intervention or just pure luck that I stumbled upon this SOLO site and after some correspondence with the Webmaster I found that the ideas that were presented on his site were opening up a whole new way of thinking.
Masturbation seemed to be the answer to my problem of living alone for the first time after 58 years of having a partner.
Now it has been almost a year of my having masturbation as my solace and my happiness. It has rounded out my life and has given me the freedom to think about my own sexuality. A way to enjoy the company of those friends who enjoy masturbation without the complications of sharing a life together.
Recently I met a gentleman who professed to want to enjoy the company of a woman who shared the pleasures of being together in various activities. After a few times of getting to know each other he asked me to share his life on a permanent basis. To become his wife.
This required some deep thought on my part. I realized that to become his wife would require me to give up my freedom to masturbate and to share masturbation stories and mutual masturbation with other men. On the other hand it would afford me security for the rest of my life.
I took the problem to my daughter and her husband and since we share an open understanding about my sexuality and interest in masturbation they were able to give me some sound advice.
They assured me that I did not have to settle for a life with a man whom I did not love and who only wanted a live-in care giver and nurse just for me to have security. They would take care of me until the end of my days and I would not have to give up the friends and the freedom that masturbation has given me.
With this assurance I gave the gentleman my answer. I turned down his offer of marriage. Now I can continue to masturbate and have the friends with whom I can enjoy mutual masturbation. It is a freedom I am not willing to give up no matter what promises of security he offers. I have a wonderful life and one that gives me much happiness.
I will always be grateful to the Webmaster and his Solo site for the opportunity of reading the stories of those who have come to the conclusion that masturbation's the way of life for them. I am now a masturbation advocate and I will share my thoughts with others who seek a life of sexual freedom.
It was a hard choice but I accepted the risk of living a life without a built in security for a life of freedom. I am glad that I made the right decision. -Trudi...