Sex and the Married Man

I have been reading stories here on Solotouch for a number of years.  Most either tell of a single encounter the writer experienced.  Others, kind of detail a sexual history.  My story tells a lamentable tale of a frustrating, yet loving marriage.  My wife and I began dating in high shool and were married a year after college.  We did all the usual stuff, first base, second base, third base, blow jobs, then finally our junior year in college we made love for the first time. I have been an active masturbator since I was 15, late "cummer" if you will.  At any rate, I had always wanted to masturbate for my wife, or better yet have her catch me.  After years of marriage and a steady diet of plain vanilla sex, I figured our sex life was never going to improve.  Then I read a submission on Solotouch about a fellow who faked an orgasm with his wife so he coud "finish" himself later.  His plan worked and I modified it for my situation.   My wife and I had just made love, missionary style thank you very much, no kinky stuff for her.  I faked my orgasm and rolled off.  A few minutes later, I told her there must be more cum in me and I needed to ejaculate it.  I said I could handle it and she told me to go ahead.  I strung out this session for as long as I could - 3 minutes?, 5 minutes, IDK.  Anyway, she did sort of watch me and was a bit intrigued having never seen me do this before.  (I told her I masturbate every so often as we only have sex about once every 10 to 12 days.) A few days later I was about to take a shower, I had a semi-hardon and she said that my 'thing' looked angry and that I should probably do something about it.  I said like what?  She said, you know, play with yourself in the shower.  Our shower is a clear glass door and she did stay and watch me stroke myself to completion.  Now I am thinkng, OK, something has changed, maybe in our late 40's she is finally thinking sex is not a dirty little secret.  Not so fast Jack.  While still never, never in over 30 years has she initiated sex, she now at least tells me I should masturbate when she is not in the mood.  I take almost any and every opportunity to masturbate.  One morning I was brushing my teeth and sort of idly stroking my cock when she came into the bathroom.  She pretended not to notice what I ws doing and jumped into the shower (glass door, remember) so I just went all out and jacked off as she showered.  Another time she challenged me to see how many "steps" my Fitbit would register during a masturbation session.  Again, I jumped at the chance, pulled off my clothes and jacked off as she watched me, not really believing I would do such a thing.  BTW, about .333 miles! I never really got her to "catch" me masturbating.  I did set-up a staged episode that worked well.  While my wife was out doing the grocery shopping, I got on top of thebed and started masturbating and reading a book - reading is my favorite hobby - when she came back she found me in the bedroom reading and stroking, I had been edging for about 90 minutes, so when she walked in I exploded.  She did have a good laugh at that one. I told you all of that to tell you this.  Fast forward 10 or 12 years, we have had less sex over the years and currently have not had sex in over 22 months.  She no longer wants to see me masturbate, she damn sure doesn't want me to have sex with her.  I remain an avid masturbator, so I have lately been feigning sleep when she enters our bedroom.  I sleep in the nude and have the sheets bunched to the side.  I stroke my cock "in-my-sleep" - she cannot miss it, but she never confronts me about this.   I don't know if anyone will read this or comment on it, but I just wanted to post my thoughts, having noone to talk to about this stuff.  I keep hoping she will one day say - hey, you have masturbated about 30 days in a row - you wanna fuck?  Ha, I doubt it, but hope and my dick spring eternal.