How I Accidentally Discovered My Erection

My most sexual date in high school was one and only one date with a girl I worked with who had a boyfriend for a long time. I was probably 16-17. She was flirty with me even though she had a boyfriend. It came to pass that she broke up with him, and she asked me to go to a movie. I went on one date with her to that movie. Most of our conversations were about sex. In my horny state, I decided to only wear my favorite short, white,  loose fitting shorts with no underwear and a tank top. She picked me up and I got into the passenger seat, she smiled at me and said thanks for going out with me. We chatted and giggled about “teenager stuff” on the way to the movie. Can we shut down in the theater I was on her right. I put my left arm around her and she put her  right arm on my leg. 

As soon as the lights went out, she began to use her fingers to lightly tickle and play with the hair on my left leg midway up my thigh. She worked her way up my left thigh until she was a couple inches from my balls. My erection was pointing down the right leg of my shorts. It was teasingly arousing how she lightly played with my leg hair! She never actually touched my cock at all, but I was so hard! My cock was straining down the right leg of my shorts. I began  leaking precum within 10 minutes!  She lightly rubbed my hairy upper thigh during the whole movie! Since it was straining down my right leg, I wonder if she knew how excited I was. I really wanted her to touch my cock but she never did. That was the longest I had ever had an erection without stroking it to orgasm. I wasn’t used to having a hard throbbing cock and not jerking off! This teasing was new and a bit torturous! I was soo horny and aroused! I kept looking at the movie screen ...Not really watching the movie. I totally enjoyed the thigh massage and hard arousal in my shorts!

I would glance down at my hard cock it was starting to poke out of the right leg of my shorts! I just wanted to jack off so bad! I imagined getting naked right there and stroking it! If I had privacy and was this horny, I’d be naked and stroking it for sure! Of course, I didn’t jack off. We were in a movie theater!  The arousal was so powerful that I was consumed with the desire to have my cock massaged to orgasm ...it's all I could think about! I could not tell you what happened in the movie. I was 100% focused on my cock and the arousal I was feeling!  I don’t know if she ever looked down to see if I was excited or not. The movie ended. When we got up to leave, Trying to hide my leaking erection, I tried to discreetly adjust my erect cock straight up! I held it in place with my waistband. While I was writing this, it occurred to me that anybody in the movie theater who happened to look at my crotch in my shorts would have seen  my hard cock pointing straight up as we walked out of the theater! My hand held hers as we walked all the way back to the car. By the time we got to the car my erection had subsided enough that I moved my cock back next to my right leg before getting in the car. She drove and she talked about the movie all the way until we got to the front of my house. She parked in front of my house and turned the engine off.  As we sat talking in front of my house, she blurted out, (totally out of context of the conversation) that  she really wanted to watch a guy masturbate. This was my dream come true I thought as my erection returned to its full throbbing state! She also stated that she really missed giving her old boyfriend  blowjobs. She said she really loved cocks! With these two announcements I was hard as a rock and leaking precum again! This time my erection in my shorts was completely obvious (at least from my angle! It was hard and throbbing pre-cum just like at the movie theater). 

She would glance towards my hard cock  which was throbbing and leaking precum next to my right leg. But there was a console between us. Maybe she didn’t see me? My throbbing cock head was nearly peeking out, maybe a quarter inch from poking out the leg of my shorts. I was so hot and horny with her continued confessions about her infatuation with cocks. 

She’d say sexual stuff in one paragraph then in the next paragraph she’d talk about getting back together with her boyfriend. It was both really confusing and also highly erotic. I was as powerfully horny as I had ever felt in my life! Between her glances towards my cock and her confession about loving the sight and taste of cock, It was pulsing and throbbing with excitement! 

 My shorts were wet and a bit transparent with precum where my cock head was. 

I’d look down at my cock when she did and think, I’m pretty exposed here. I wonder if she sees what I am seeing? It was pretty dark inside the car, (there was a street lamp about 75 yards up the street). My cockhead was beginning to peak out of the leg of my wet shorts the more I squirmed the more of it that became visible. I was so horny knowing that she “might” be able to see my cock if she sat up enough and looked over! Honestly, I was totally enjoying the teasing arousal! I had so many fantasies  about having my cock exposed to someone who seemed to be eager to see, touch, or suck it! I really wanted to pull  my cock totally out of the leg of my shorts and masturbate so bad!  My desire was so powerful!  Yet I would never put someone in that situation.  I admit I was totally enjoying this sexy arousal! My cock was beginning to poke out even more as I squirmed more in my seat! 

My cock was so hard! It was so big!  I was proud of it! I really wanted her to see my throbbing cock! But I wasn’t sure with the darkness of the car and the console between us. I knew that she definitely could not see my cock peeking out like I could just looking down at it🤪. “Let me take my shorts off so you can at least see my cock!” I begged her in my horny mind. I know if  she would have said, “Pull your shorts down and let me suck your cock,” or, “jerk off for me,” I’m positive I would have said yes! I was hoping for exactly that!  I wanted to grab my cock and jerk off for her, or have her jerk me off or suck my cock, but she didn’t  say, “Steve will you masturbate for me? Or can I suck your cock or jerk you off?” …as much as I wanted to, I didn’t offer  to masturbate for her out loud either. I know I was so turned on that I probably would have compromised my commitment to God to maintain my virginity until marriage (although fucking wasn’t even mentioned). Then in a flash, I was actually in a sense rescued. She said out of the blue, “I should probably go.” I thought, “You're kidding right”? I was disappointed but also thought, “God just rescued me”! I said, “You're probably right, goodnight thanks for the date,” and got out of her car. I faced her with the door open and said goodnight one more time.  The top 1/3rd of my throbbing cock was now out of my shorts “staring” at her! As soon as I was on the side of my house, I pulled my cock and balls totally out of the leg of my shorts and started touching myself! I just needed my cock to be touched so badly! I kept stroking myself as I went into my house. It was late and no one would be up.

When I got to my room in the basement, I was naked in a flash! I remember imagining her mouth on my cock while masturbating the 1st time. I Shot my wad in minutes! Still hard and turned on  I looked at my white shorts on the floor. They were almost transparent in the area where the head of my cock was throbbing against my leg. 

I lifted them to my nose and breathed in deeply! I loved the scent of my arousal! I thought that she had a dimly lit and  “covered”  view of my hard cock if she ever looked in the theater or the car. When I got out of the car and faced her, she would have to have been blind not to see the top ⅓ of my cock poking out of my shorts. I looked at my cock while squeezing and stroking it. My hard cock is so virile I thought! I was still holding my shorts up to my face and smelling my manly precum smell (to this day, I love the smell of my arousal and cum!) I masturbated again until I shot yet another load  imagining her hand on my cock instead of mine! 

After that experience I imagined fantasies of nameless and faceless girls masturbating me or sucking on my cock while I masturbated.

I wasn’t angry at the clear teasing I had experienced. The teasing had turned me on in an unexpected way that I totally enjoyed … I discovered I was drawn to the highly charged teasing sexual arousal, I liked it! That night, I’m pretty sure that I masturbated again before I could be calmed down enough to sleep. The memory of that experience was the foundation for many more solo orgasms in the next month or two. On a side note, this experience definitely showed me and even heated up a desire in me that was new and fun! The new desire was adventurous, it was exhibitionistic! I’m pretty sure that she saw my cock and liked it!  I liked that she “probably saw” my hard cock. I hoped that she “saw it” while talking about how she loved cocks! Although my cock was not bouncy free or naked, My tip was completely visible and my whole hard cock was easy to see in outline form!  “She had to see my cockhead peeking out the leg of my shorts when I got out of the car” I thought …. Deep down I hoped  that She saw my cock in both the theater and the car and had to masturbate when she got home because she was so horny! The sexy cock exposure made me feel like a sexy manly man! The next time I saw her at work I was not embarrassed at all. By then, she had gotten back together with her boyfriend. We remained friends and she stayed flirty. 

From that experience, I realized that in order to keep my commitment to God, I needed to jack-off a time or two before going out on a date. Masturbating before dates became my new practice. Also I learned that I loved extended erections! 

I was grateful for the heavenly rescue from sharing any sexually with a girl at that young age. I think after the boundary of sharing sexuality with another person is crossed, it’s more difficult to remain a virgin or totally enjoy masturbation like I did until marriage. Interpersonal sex is not even in the same league as solo masturbation. Thankfully I stayed in the minor league and absolutely enjoyed myself completely!

MY SEXUAL BLUEPRINT: Our 1st experiences with orgasm set up a blueprint of how we will be drawn to enjoy the pleasure again. Looking back, and understanding how our sexuality is developed, I think those moments of simply showing my brothers my hard dick and feeling good about it while at the same time feeling the wonderful tingly feeling of the stretching skin of my erection, (They wanted to see my dick, and I wanted to show it to them) in that moment I think I was wired with a very innocent but  powerful “consensual”  exhibitionistic tendency,  a blueprint so to speak.  I was still pretty young when my mom caught me. And that was a positive experience. When I thought for sure that the girl on my “most sexual date“ saw my hard and excited cock, I was excited by it. I have enjoyed thousands of fantasies about being caught masturbating (it has been a major theme). Second, an adventurous spirit guided me to enjoy my second orgasm. As I explored and enjoyed my own sexuality, the adventurous nature of the masturbation setting would be a large portion of what turned me on. I was drawn to masturbation adventures (mirrored masturbation, poking out of my shorts while playing, masturbating in our cardboard spaceship and tree house, & paper route fun).

Thirdly, that 1st orgasm occurred outside on a sunny day. I love the sunshine on my naked skin!  (I loved poking out of my shorts when I rode to and from my paper route).  It is highly erotic for me to get a hand job, or masturbate, outside. Some of my best sexual memories with Shelley are having sex with her outside! 

Based on Jack Morin’s sexual research work and book called: “The Erotic Mind”, He concludes that at some point in childhood, something triggers a powerful sexual response, which lays the neurological foundation for the specific feelings we “require” to be sexually present. That “something” which triggers this theme may be, from early solo experiences,  consensual, or non-consensual interpersonal sex. 

According to Morin’s theory, this main CET theme doesn’t really change throughout the course of our lifetime.

Your core erotic themes stem from the feelings that you feel and the stimuli that encourage you to be sexually engaged. It’s your own personal and unique sexual wiring….the space you need to connect to and inhabit within yourself that lights you up and makes you feel alive sexually.

There are 5 Core Erotic Themes. They get established during early sexual situations that happened while experiencing  early orgasms! The early neurological learning that is powerfully established by early orgasm(s), set up our core erotic themes. Those contexts that we experienced with our early orgasms get connected neurologically to orgasmic delight and they become the basis of the stimuli that turns us on.  I took an online test to see what my Core EroticTheme(s) were. Out of 5 main themes, I have one very strong main core erotic theme, My Theme is called:

Sexual: "The sexual loves nudity; they love penetration; they like frequent intercourse; they  really get into orgasm; and they can get upset if they're not getting enough sex—if they're not getting enough orgasms,".   "They like erotic visuals, they like self-pleasuring or masturbation. Sexuals,  they love sex!"  

This core erotic theme describes me perfectly! This research is interesting to me. I have wondered why my sexuality is the way it is. Why do I crave sex and orgasm so often? Why do I love what I love sexually? My original powerful erotic visuals were my hard cock and then my naked body that was becoming very muscular for my age. My body flexing and twitching in the mirror and the look of my beautiful masculine hard cock as I watched it receive pleasure by my hand really made (and makes) my arousal powerful! My own body and hard cock were my only visual stimulations (thankfully, I had no access to pornography). My  own nakedness, especially if I was flexing in the mirror, was arousing enough for me to grow an erection to stroke and tease myself. I'm 100% convinced that my own muscular body and manly-looking powerful-feeling  hard cock or are part of my unique core erotic themes.

Before my muscling up time in life, the only part of my body that I paid any particular attention to when I was naked standing in front of a mirror, was my hard cock while I was watching myself masturbate.  I’d watch my hands stroking it as I felt the wonderful arousal that my hands were giving to it. My hard cock always made me feel like such a man as I've watched it being stroked by my hands almost every time I masturbated! Until that day, when I thought of being a man I thought of my hard cock. I loved watching my cock as I masturbated! I’d either look down past my chest and stomach at its impressive length and girth, as I held it and stroked, or I’d watch my cock in the mirror as I masturbated.   My shiny precum oozing cock being pleased by my hands was so arousing! I loved the site of my reddish mushroom head sitting on top of a very powerful veiny stock of manliness! I would watch my balls bounce up and down as I teased and stroked my favorite body part. I loved MY HARD COCK! Hard aroused cock = manly man! 

I know that being turned on seeing my erection as I masturbate is a definite core erotic theme for me. My second orgasm came from rubbing my big erection on my leg until it spurted out the white liquid. I watched intently as I rubbed my erection … the pleasure built to extraordinary wonderful and then I saw my erection spurt my cum! Watching myself cum has always turned me on. Watching myself cum is also a core erotic theme for me.

I think that seeing my own naked muscular body as I masturbate is also a core erotic theme for me. I was my own voyeur for my own exhibitionism 🤪 

I loved watching my muscles flex! Watching my naked and excited body became the primary source of my sexual arousal for the rest of my single masturbation life!  At 17 years old I got a  nautilus membership. I started seeing even more muscle growth which I cherished! From the time I started that universal bodybuilding program up until present day, I believe that I only went about 2 years in my entire life (The two years following my freshman year when I stopped college wrestling) without exercising, wrestling, running,  or lifting. During my single time in my life, I thought that it was very convenient that my own body aroused me so much! I remember thinking how good God was to give me this  way to enjoy my own sexuality in such a powerful way! I felt strong, manly, and virile! I was impressed with what I was looking like in the mirror from my early teens. Like most teenagers I wrestled with self-esteem. Seeing my muscular body developing in the mirror totally improved my self-esteem. 

Since those days, I have related my sense of masculinity and sexuality to my muscular body! 

I have masturbated thousands of times while I flexed in the mirror🤪🤪❗️  

TAKING PICTURES OF MYSELF:

When I turned 17 my parents bought me a 35 mm camera. I first took pictures of myself flexing shirtless. Within 3 years  during my college years, I was taking pictures of myself naked and masturbating. I loved looking at the slides and masturbating to them! I loved my body, it was sexy and beautiful! I did not believe that someone could look at my naked body and disagree with that fact.