My Cousin ... The Early Experience

My cousin and I have a close relationship. We lived in different parts of the country and saw one another maybe only two or three times up to the age of 14 .. we are the same age. Then her parents moved to the village where I lived with my parents. That was when we became close friends. That was long ago ... we remain close to this day. 

She's attractive, was then and still is. Dark hair, not exactly chubby, but let's say well-covered. She loves to laugh and has a permanent half smile that makes one feel she loves to be with you. I can't remember ever seeing her angry or aggressive.

We talked about everything and anything. She is very outspoken and we spoke easily about personal things including sexual feelings and masturbation. We did not use the word "masturbate" we called it "jiggle" .. "jiggle my you-know-what" Or we'd talk about "having fun down there". 

These discussions always got me horny. On sleep-overs when we'd had one of our discussions about boys 'n girls and jiggling I'd  masturbate later when I went to my room. She was in the habit of walking in without knocking .. I suspect she hoped to catch me doing it, but I always got under the covers ... so there was never a definite being caught with her actually seeing me touching myself. 

On one occasion when she had again walked in without knocking she asked me if I was doing it. I wasn't and I said, no, not this time but I do sometimes after we talk. Do you want to, she asked? It ended with us masturbating together ... me under the covers and her sitting in the chair. She was wearing a loose-fitting top that came all the way down to her knees. I could see her hands moving under it. 

This became a regular thing on sleep-overs. There was an unspoken understanding between us, we were cousins so there would not be physical contact, kissing or touching one another.

It was very exciting for me. I guess for her too. She often initiated a "discussion" which then quickly led to a session of masturbating together in the same room. She stopped walking in without knocking 😃 ... more or less confirms what I thought the reason for barging in on me was. We always covered up. Not because we were concerned about being caught ... we did it when the grownups were at work or had gone out somewhere.

I always tried to not cum before she did ... seeing her cum, however, always sent me over the edge instantly; she didn't make sounds, but her breathing would be louder towards the end. She'd also shut her eyes. To start off she'd watch me, but near the end she'd close her eyes and have a little frown of concentration. Then the her body would visibly tense momentarily - her shoulders would jerk forward involuntarily a few times when it happened, then body relax, then a sigh and the smile would return.

I've had spontaneous orgasms a few times, not many, less than five times not counting the ones that happen while I'm sleeping. I say spontaneous orgasm rather than premature ejaculation because I did not actually ejaculate semen until after my 18th birthday ... I was a late developer and my small penis and lack of pubic hair was embarrassing. I experienced feelings of shame even. So ... It suited me very well for us to be covered while masturbating ... she would not see my small penis and I could enjoy the experience without feeling anxious.