Self-realisation

Category: Female Solo (F)
Submitted by: Margaret Age: 39 Gender: Female

My story is about self-realization. Learning something about yourself that you never knew before. In my case I am not at all happy with what I learned about myself but I don't know that there is anything I can do about it. I am thinking about getting counselling but that is quite expensive. I told my story to my mom and she said it's only a big deal in your mind if you let it become a big deal.

My daughter Traci is fifteen and a wonderful girl. Last summer she had invited her best friend Marcie over to our pool several times. Marci is a delightful girl and I'm happy that she and Traci are best friends. Marci is a leader and helps Traci make good decisions.

One Saturday near the end of summer Traci invited another girl over that I had never met. Elaine was very attractive and seemed like a very nice girl. At one point in the day I was preparing to bring out some snacks for the girls and just as I got to the back door and looked toward the pool I saw the three of them minus their bathing suit tops. We live in a secluded area and have a privacy fence so I had no concerns about them being seen by neighbors. I just wasn't ready for this. I strongly suspect that this was Elaine's idea since it never happened before.

I called out that I was coming out soon. I figured that would give them time to put their tops back on. They didn't! I brought out the snacks and the three of them including my daughter acted as though this was perfectly normal. I just couldn't help looking at their breasts. All three were built very well with very shapely breasts but Elaine had what some call puffy nipples. Actually it is the areola that is puffy. In her case they were extremely puffy. I have no idea what causes this. I had to force myself not to stare at Elaine's nipples.

I got back to the house and the realisation hit me that I was aroused by looking at not only Elaine's tits but by both my daughter and her friend Marci. Prior to this I had never felt any interest in women, young or older and now here I was being turned on by my own daughter and her friends. I should now tell you that I have not masturbated since before I got married and even then only rarely. Masturbating is exactly what I felt like doing at that moment. I wanted to continue to look and I called to them and said I was going to join them. They were fine with that and in a few minutes I went outside in my bathing suit and pulled up a pool chair. I had a magazine with me but that was just a prop. I looked at their tits frequently and Elaine's in particular. God was I aroused. Finally, I just went into the house and to my room where I masturbated furiously to visions of those three sets of lovely tits.

I was and am extremely upset with myself for how I reacted both physically and mentally to looking at their tits. Why would a woman my age get excited and aroused by the sight of a teenagers tits? I can still see my daughters perky little nipples in my mind and I would love to play with them. I would love to take Elaines puffies into my mouth and just suck and suck. that's just for starters.

This happened months ago and I still think about it. Another summer is not that far away.

[lb][i]This story was originally submitted to Solo Touch and not published because it violates the rules.[/i][rb]