First Time Seeing Porn

It was the summer before my senior year in high school when I got together with some friends at the house of one while his parents were at work. We had the idea to go to the adult video store to get some porn for us to watch.

They came back with two videos that I now realize were pretty generic. The scenes started with oral and then moved onto intercourse. Over and over it went like that. This was the first time I realized that I really like looking at close ups of female bits, and being your regular, standard porn, there was a lot of it.

Growing up, I felt very self-conscious of how big my inner labia were. They protruded out beyond my outer labia even long before puberty. I thought I made them that way from early and frequent masturbation. It didn't help that I was on the swim team as a young girl and noticed in the locker room that I was the only one who was shaped that way. Everyone else had neat, little slits, and I was so ashamed of how I had deformed myself.

Seeing porn for the first time, I saw that all these grown women were shaped like me. I was still on the big side compared to them, but I no longer felt like a freak. All those close ups were comforting to me and arousing at the same time. I enjoyed the cunnilingus scenes a lot. The intercourse scenes in positions where the woman's vulva was most visible were great to watch, too. My favorite position to watch it was when the man is lying on his back with the woman lying on her back on top of him. There would always be a nice full-body frontal view of her, and the camera would pan in often for those close up meat shots. I saw one female masturbation scene that day, and although it didn't look like anything real, I still got turned on seeing a woman finger herself.

After I returned home from my friend's house, I was so turned on that I had to masturbate right away. It was the first time I fingered my clit without feeling like my labia were gross and deformed because of what I did to myself. I did it proudly and happily. I had a great orgasm like I often did, but the afternoon of watching porn was so arousing for me that I continued for several more rounds of carefree clit fingering well into the night before I was sated.

Altogether, the acting in the videos was horrible and the actors just so-so looking. They were not really my type, but seeing all that action with female close ups really did it for me.