Seems Strange but True

My name is Ashleigh and I would never have in all my life thought that I would be writing this. I was told about this site by a friend and I am glad that I found it. I was beginning to think I was some sort of freak but after 'the therapeutic' reading on this site I feel a whole lot better about myself. There is a whole lot more to my story but that would require a book or a novel and then who would read it.

I was married to a minister for fourteen years. He dominated every aspect of my life. He used scripture to dictate how I was to be a wife and how our sex life was and every aspect of life in general. Then one day he said to me that he had met some one better in all aspects of life, his 'soul mate'. He also said that she was a better sexual partner than I was and was more free. I was devastated by this. I was very confused by what he said because I did what he wanted when he wanted and his only concern was his satisfaction and there was very little for me. He frowned on masturbation and I being the dutiful wife even denied myself the pleasure of myself.

After fourteen months of grieving over my lost marriage and identity I decided that I was going to start over.

I picked a day when I was going to rebuild myself. I had several girl friends that tried to help but I chose to wallow in a pool of self pity that left me in a barely functioning haze of depression and self denial. I basically stopped living a good life and barely existed for a while. On 'new start' day I decided to go shopping for new clothes and then get groceries after. I started with a nice hot shower. Then I shaved my legs with a new sensitive skin shaving foam that left my legs feeling smooth. While I was shaving my legs I decided to shave my pussy bare. It was so sensitive to the touch. I also shaved the hair from the crack of my fanny, a feeling developed inside that I had not felt before. I had been so repressed for so long that I repressed this desire also.

I had to go shopping, so off to the store I went. I started by getting new lingerie, matching bras and panties. These were very silky and smooth panties and bras, I was awakening inside. Then to another store for a new dress or two. I picked out a long skirt and a shorter dress to show off my legs. I paid for the clothes and put the shorter dress and new panties and bra on in the changing room. Then I needed some new shoes to match the new dress. My new shoes were heels. I bought a pair of white and a pair of black heels. With the heels I bought booty socks that fit in the shoe only. I can't stand the feeling of sweaty feet in shoes of any kind. I stood in front of the mirror and looked at myself and said to myself 'You look great, better than you feel.' So much for new clothes, time to go grocery shopping then home. Some of the women that I work with had decided to go out later and I wanted to finish my shopping first.

I had a shopping list, fruit veggies, lettuce, milk, eggs, bread then home.

I entered the store and went to the produce section picked out my fruit, oranges, apples, bananas. I grabbed a head of lettuce and looked for other produce for a mixed salad, some radishes and maybe some cucumbers. When I looked at the cucumber stack one looked like a large green penis. The image just stuck in my head. The perfect round head of the large end of the cucumber was at that moment a penis. It was very large. When I picked it up my finger and thumb could not touch when I wrapped my fingers around it. I could feel my cheeks blush and my pussy got instantly wet. I was so wet it was like I had peed my pants. I could feel my wetness start to ooze down my leg. I put two of the cucumbers in my cart and hurried through my shopping, bread, eggs, milk. Then I went to the pharmacy aisle. I grabbed a pack of condoms and some lubricating liquid just in case.

I was so suddenly overcome with desire I couldn't help it. I was temporarily out of control. I was trembling on the inside. I had an achey-crampy taut feeling that gripped me. It went from my pubic area to my belly button. This crampy, achey, tickly feeling would not go away it just became stronger and stronger. I had to do something about it.

As calmly and quickly as I could I checked out. It was difficult to control myself and not run out of the store to my car. I placed my groceries on the front passenger seat parked my shopping cart and got in the driver's side of the car. I tilted the steering wheel fully forward leaned to my right side and slid my wet slimey panties off. I couldn't get them off fast enough. They were wet. I smelled them they smelled of primal desire. I loved the way they smelled and the wetness drove me wild.

I found the condom box opened it and got two of the foil packs out. Then I found my green friend. I held it in my hand. It was larger than any penis I have seen. I rolled a condom on it, then another. It was a good thing the windows of my car are tinted and hard to see in. I tied the end of the condoms in a knot like making a balloon animal and now my 'friend' was as ready as I. My aching pussy was so wet I didn't need any extra lubrication. I slid 'him' between my legs as I laid on my right side. 'He' slid in suprisingly easy. OOOOOOHHHHHHH he felt SSSSSSSSSSOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO GOOOOOOOOOD. I had an instant orgasm upon entry. 'He' filled my burning with desire pussy so full. It felt SSSSSSSSSSSOOOOOOOOOOOOOO GOOOOOOOOOOD. I moved 'him' in and out and had orgasm after orgasm. I started to grunt and groan, each orgasm was stronger than the preceeding. The orgasms were like strong cramps that felt good. I moved my hand from between my legs and went down my side and could still get a good grip on my 'friend'. In and out in and out over and over, orgasm after orgasm. It was like a flood of pleasure, joy and tears was released. Finally after a very large strong orgasm I was temporarily sated. I had been crying, screaming, and cumming. I was drained but not done. I was just started. I sat up in the seat and decided to drive home. My 'friend' was in my pussy. I could feel 'him' inside. He reached to my belly button and was so firm. 'He' was my 'new best friend'.

As I drove home I had one hand on the steering wheel and one hand on my friend. I stroked him in and out all the way home. I drove through one roundabout and stopped at two stop lights. I made certain to stop my car so that no one could see in when stopped.

My house has an attached garage with an automatic opener just a touch of a button the door opens and another touch and it closes. Safely home I pressed my legs together and held my 'friend' inside me. I carried my purse and two bags of groceries in the house and went to my bedroom. I stripped off my clothes and masturbated with my new found 'friend' in bed. I loved the feeling that I was having. I cancelled my evening out and stayed in bed. I would cry, cum, and sleep. Then I would awaken, masturbate some more, cum, cry, sleep. I did this until my pussy became too sore to continue. I slept like a baby, so relaxed and felt soooooo good. I had been missing so much. My 'friend' served the purpose that day. I have a huge dong that has taken 'his' place. My dong is built the way I like it. How big? For those interested 'he' was bought from an on line store and is two and three quarters' in diameter and ten inches long. 'He' has a suction cup base the sticks on tables, walls, mirrors. I have used him standing, sitting, lying in bed, bath and pool. I even stuck him to the big exterior window on the twenty sixth floor. It was the tallest building of that block and what a sensation that day.

My new 'friend' never tells me no, nor does 'he' make me feel inadequate. 'He' is going to be with me for a long time. That is more than I can say about a man. I suppose they have their good points and I might get married again but it won't be for sex. I might let him watch and then when I am satisfied I will satisfy him. Keep on jilling girls. Ashleigh...............