Questions in 3rd grade

One day in 3rd grade I saw this boy sitting across from me with a gap in his shorts and I could see his penis. When I first saw it I stopped and looked but didn't want anyone to know that I was actually looking including the boy. I kept staring because this was the first time I had seen a boy's genitals. They looked wrinkly and sort of weird for a lack of a better word. I thought to myself that boys had disgusting privates, I was only a 3rd grader after all. I wondered why they had what they all referred to as 'nuts' and just how they could even ever touch that part of their body to pee, crazy I know but I honestly thought these things. I never looked at another boy the same again. One day my friends and I had a long discussion about boys and their private parts and essentially we all declared that because it was so gross we would NEVER like a boy. In 8th grade we all broke that promise including the one of us that turned out to be a lesbian, we all had boyfriends and for some of us by the end of 8th grade we didn't find their private bits so disgusting anymore if you know what I mean. I for one continued dating but never did anything sexual with a boy before graduating High School and was never alone with a boy but I still enjoyed hearing my friends talk about things they had done...and these were the same girls who ran from boys in 3rd grade.