Playing Without Getting Off

Over a decade ago, I had to begin taking medication for depression. Taking the medications helped my depression but laid waste to my libido.

All my life, I had played with myself at least almost daily. Then suddenly I lost interest in making love and masturbating. My wife, a lusty woman, noticed the changes almost at once. I noticed more slowly.

Eventually, my wife left. Still, I could masturbate once of twice a month and enjoy intense orgasms. Then over the years, as I used better medications, this pleasure too faded. Late last year, my internal medicine doctor told me that my body produced almost no testosterone. I had stopped masturbating.

Four and half months ago, after bypass surgery and proper checks by my urologist, I got to begin taking testosterone shots. Almost immediately I had two or three pleasant masturbation sessions.

Now, at the end of the sessions, I rage with desire but I can't get off. I tug and beat my meat like a sixteen-year-old boy, but I can't quite get my penis to fire off. Still, simply holding my hand over the tip of my penis with my tumb just below the the head and with two fingers holding the other side of the tip, I enjoy hours of entertainment. Never give up.