Wanting to be Caught in the Act

Wanting to be caught in the act

I started masturbating when I was very young and used it to relieve my sexual tension. I would always feel ashamed and guilty afterwards. I meet my wife about 20 years ago and discontinued the practice for awhile. My wife and I were sexually active and didn't worry about her getting pregnant because we wanted a child.

After our first child she went on the pill with adverse effects, so she discontinued them. We tried condoms, they broke and didn't feel good for her or me. We tried the yank method and the cycle method, these were very frustrating. And after our third child she got fixed. During that time I masturbated now and then with the same guilt. I got a bit bold with my wife one day and told her that I had masturbated without letting her know, I got so excited I asked her if I could masturbate with her watching me, she said ok if you want so I did and found it very erotic. I told her I often masturbated while in bed beside her as she slept wanting her to catch me in the act.

The thought of that has prompted me to totally uncover at night (We sleep in the nude) when I get horny or awake with an erection and play with myself hoping she wakes and catches me. She hasn't yet, I try to make noise of heavy breathing or whispering how beautiful her breasts are and don't cover up till I sop the cum off my stomach and chest. Even the thought gets me excited, but I wish she would catch me in the act.