High Maintenance

as long as i can remember, i have been what you might call 'high maintenance' when it comes to sensuous or sexual feelings.

by that, i mean i seemingly think about masturbation, sex or being around woman all of the time. I think of myself like Burt Reynolds in that great movie called 'The Man Who Loved Women.' that's me. I absolutely love women and the sensuous with which they can create in a man.

i have never married, but have dated a lot and also gotten into several relationships. i look back on those relationships and every one became totally centered on sex for me. i know that is very selfish on my part, but i can't help it. it's just me. to me, there's not many things more delicious in this world than tasting a woman.

but i have avoided getting into a relationship for nearly four years now, simply because i feel as if I am 'using' a woman solely for sex. it's not fair for her. the women that i have dated have seemingly gone along with the sex part just to use as 'bait' to catch a man. that would eventually frustrate and upset me.

so now, my main sexual outlet is totally solo sex. when i am horny and in the mood for releasing some sexual tension, stress or feelings, i masturbate. and i love it. i get into major, prolonged and highly intense sessions to where they might last as long as two-to-three hours. i take my time, caress all parts of my body, visualize various love sessions with women in magazines and become totally involved with the process. i can go for hours like this.

the time will surely come when i get back to an actual relationship, full of loving and maybe even some mutual self-pleasuring sessions, and that my love for women will increase even more.

until then, i will enjoy solo sex to the ultimate.