Pecker Admiration

I became aware of my pecker's ability to harden when I was about 6 years old as a result of seeing my cousin Jane being spanked by her mother on her bare behind. The spanking lasted long enough for Jane's behind to deepen in color from pale white to pink and then to red. The spanking caused my little pecker to harden and tingle pleasantly. That night when everyone was asleep I quietly pushed my pajamas down so I could get a clear view of my penis and began to rub it between my thumb and index finger until I reproduced the delight I had had earlier. After a few repetitions of this, I was able to produce an erection merely by staring at my little thing. I was amazed that my penis was able to stand up by itself. I greatly admired its change of shape, size and color. I had no idea that there was anything sexual involved, or for that matter that there was such a thing as sex. For some reason I realized that I should conceal this pleasure as I was certain my parents would disapprove of it, so I limited my pecker exercises to the bathroom or the bed. The feeling of pleasure at seeing my pecker stand up was so intense, I could not resist the urge to produce a hard as often as possible which was about 3 times a day -- while bathing, at night in bed, and in the morning. None of this procuced an orgasm. This changed one day when I was about 9 and saw my older brother and one of his friends jerking off. They didn't realize I was home when they were at it, and after getting over their embarrassment at being caught, gave me an explanation of their fun and games. I then realized that my long time adventure had a name and a purpose. The name according to my brother was jerking off. The purpose was to have an orgasm which they called comming. I joined in the fun, and jerked with them until they shot off. I could not produce come as they did, but the orgasm I had was the most intense pleasure I had until then.